My Heart Beats For You

better without you

“Sam can you please help me in getting up?” Sana asked making everybody frown
Sid smiled and moved back while Sam was looking at Sid and moved forward

“gussa hai na mujhse…I told you na about our fight…but its ok I will coax her” Sid said to Sukh ji who was looking at Sana and him with confusion
Sukh ji nodded at him “Haan puttar, you both are childhood bestie jyada time tujhse gussa nahi reh payegi”

“I hope so”
Sam  helped Sana to get inside the car and while Sukh ji sat beside her and Sid sat with Sam at front

“by the way Sid…. In all this fiasco I forgot appreciating you…your presentation was beyond my expectation yesterday and everyone was so impressed by you”

“thank you uncle but this all was possible only because of Sanu…after my presentation got vanished I had lost all hopes but Sana had a backup plan and only because of her I was able to give interview” Sid said looking towards Sana through mirror but Sana didn’t replied anything and looked down making Sid a little dishearten

Upon reaching home Sam took Sana to her room followed by other
“I wanted to stay but today we have a important lecture so I need to attend it and don’t worry Sana I will bring notes for you” Sam said and left

“I also need to go… today we have to decide the selection…so bache please take care of yourself and catch some sleep I will meet you at evening and will have dinner together aaj main apni bachi ko apne hathon se khana khilauga” Sukh ji said kissing Sana’s forehead and went down now only Sidnaaz were left in the room

“Sanu…” Sid said moving forward
“Sidharth I want to have some rest can you please leave?...and yes please close the door too when you leave.” Sana said lying on her bed

Sid felt bad but still he smiled “I deserve this behavior” he moved forward and sat beside her

“no I won’t leave I will stay with my Sanu”

“Sid please…”
“please Sanu let me explain first…. I know I lied but I did it for your happiness baby and also now everything is changed now I….”

“Sid please stop….just stop…I don’t want to listen anything kuch nahi sun na mujhe, tune vo kiya jo tujhe theek laga and now I will do which is appropriate for me please let me take my decisions…you did it for my happiness but Sid have you ever thought what will happen the day I will get to know the truth?” she said and burst into tears

Sid immediately hugged her tightly as tears flows from his eyes too… he never wanted to see Sana like this she looks broken and his heart is aching seeing her pain… he want to take all her pains away

“Sweetu I am sorry I am so sorry but baby when you said you love me I didn’t knew how to react maine kabhi socha nahi tha is bare mein and then I looked into your eyes there was so much hope in it and I had no guts to break your heart then but now….”

“ really Sid, you said me yes because you fell pity on me ki bichari pehle hi depressed rehti hai let me do a favor for her but Sid I didn’t need your favor…. If you had said no to me then  I would have felt hurt but it would have been less then the pain I am feeling now ….please go from here…I don’t need your charity”

Sid cried listening her “how much I have hurt her its all my fault I shouldn’t have lied to her but now its no more a lie”

Sanu… sanu… please listen me….please punish me in any way you want…scold me but please don’t cry like this vent out all our anger at me” he said taking her hand and then he started slapping himself with her hand but Sana immediately removed her hand from his hold

“Sid please I don’t want punish you… please leave me alone please go I am not angry at you I am mad at myself”

Sid cupped her face lovingly “Sanu please…please don’t say me to stay away from you…. Sanu I know my lies has broken your heart but baby now its not a lies it’s a truth…now I have feelings for you in real”
Sana looked into his eyes and his eyes were showing immense innocence ,these words were giving her hopes again, her heart was dancing with joy listening his words

“No…no no Sanu you can’t trust him again he will again break your heart… he only has sympathy for you nothing else”
She removed his palms from her face “Sid please go” she said looking in other direction which broke Sid’s heart
“baby” he whispered in a broken voice he never knew that they have to face such type situation too where he had broken her beyond repair

“Sanu please trust me please give just one more chance please I will fill your life with happiness I promise I will never let you face any problem alone” he said imploring his hand
“Sid I don’t need anyone to give happiness I can find it myself please leave now I won’t say anything against you papa that will create your bad image in front of him”
Sid frowned at her statement “what do you mean by this baby?”

“Sid I know how much papa means to you and you have always been  obliged to him for everything he did for you and maybe because of this reason you were tolerating me but don’t worry I won’t say anything to papa”

, his heart filled with anger listening her words
“really, do you think so low of me? hann? Am I that bad?” he said pulling her close from her arms
She looked into eyes and she knew how much she has hurt him, “no Sid I don’t think like this about you… I know you never meant this infact you are best person in the world ” she wanted to say and kiss his eyes to take away his tears as his tears were piercing her heart but for now she is not in a state of mind to thinking sanely

“Sid leave me… you are hurting me” she said looking the other side

“You are hurting me too Sanu by saying me to go away from you please don’t do this”

“Sid go.. go….. just go” she yelled this time and then started breathing heavily her head started spinning and she held her head to control the pain

“Sanu what’s happening with you?” Sid said panicking he started stroking her back

“Sid please go… go… tu jayega toh main khud theek ho jayugi” she said and Sid left her immediately

“Sid tu hota hai na then sab kuch right lgta hai”
Sid please stay near me… I feel restless when I don’t see you around”

“Sid please don’t get angry with me… I feel pain in my stomach when you don’t talk with me”
“stay by my side always please”

All these flashback memories came near his eyes when he heard her word

“I am giving you pain na Sanu…. Fine if you will feel happy without me if you will get fine when I will leave then its ok… I will leave Sanu… but please remember one thing I never faked anything all my love and concern was real you really mean everything to me” saying so he got up  to leave when Sana called him giving him a little hope....

What will Sana say now? Stay tuned to know

Sorry for getting late I had to make presentation today which took lot of time

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