The Return "Allegiant p2"

Chapter 5 -Tobias-

Later that night I go to the party. Everyone I know is there, like they usually are. Even Peter, who remembers that he didn't really like Tris or Uriah, and nothing else from when he drank the memory serum.

I see Zeke standing in the corner by himself. He looks pale. Normally at these parties, Zeke drinks until he can no longer stand up. He says even though we are celebrating the lives of Tris and Uriah, he feels like a part of him are still mourning them. I can't say I blame him. Sometimes I feel like that too. But instead of dealing with his feelings he drinks through them.

I decide to walk up to him to see how drunk he is already and if he needs an escort home. "Zeke?" I snap my fingers in his face. Zeke jumps back a little.

"Wha-? Oh sorry man." He mumbles. He doesn't sound drunk.

"Still sober I see," I joke, even though I'm glad he isn't drinking through his emotions to forget them for two reasons, one for the previous reason and two because I always get stuck bringing him home.

"Yeah" he replies, "I guess I'm just not in the mood to drink," his voice drops to a whisper. This is so unlike Zeke. Something is wrong. Something he isn't telling me.

"Zeke, what's wr-" I begin before being cutoff by Zeke.
"Look Tobias, I uh, I think I'm just going to go home, but have fun." He looks at me and nods and then turns around and leaves.

That was so unlike Zeke. Again I wonder, "What's wrong with Zeke?"

Christina comes over and taps me on the shoulder. "Four!" she yells over all the voices. "It's been four years!" She laughs at her own joke. Zeke may not have gotten drunk, but Christina sure did.

"Had a little to much to drink Christina?" I quirk my eyebrows.

"She giggles before answering all serious, "Maybe a little," she thinks tapping her chin. I can't help it, I laugh.

"What's so funnny?" She asks slowly.

"You are," I reply. "You've taken Zeke's place."

"Four!" Guess what?" She says too excitedly.

"What?" I ask playing along. A drunken Christina is kind of funny. She is so going to have a bad hangover in the morning.

"Wouldn't it be so cool of Tris and Uriah were to come strutting in and were all like "hey everybody." What have we missed?" At the word strutting she gets up and starts walking around like she's a model on a runway. When she turns around and sees me staring at her, she giggles drunkenly before returning to where I am.

She starts talking again. "And they-" she freezes her brow furrowed. Then her forehead falls forward and she starts snoring. "Great, instead of helping Zeke home, I'm helping Christina home," I mentally whine in my head.

"Ok Christina, let's get you home. I shake her slightly.

"No, I'm having fuun. I wanna stay," she whines drunkenly. I can see she won't budge.

"Oh for the love of- you know what? I'll just carry you," I say, picking her up and swinging her over my shoulder. She is wide awake now. As I carry her she giggles. People stare at us. Someone snickers. I feel like I'm back in school.

Grey Abnegation clothes walking down the hall. People whispering and laughing. At me. In Abnegation, we were not supposed to argue with others or talk idly as it was self-indulgent. My father made sure that I knew that over and over again.

Well not anymore. Marcus isn't here and there are no more factions. I argue silently. I glare at them. That gets them to shut up.

I wonder idly what people are thinking of the current situation. I am single, and 22. I shudder. I would never take advantage of someone like that. Especially not Christina.

The only person I have almost done something with is Tris. I immediately try to throw the thought out of my head."Stop thinking about her," I chide. She is gone.

So far I have done a pretty good job of keeping thoughts of her at bay by keeping busy. Some memories are just distant, happy memories, but a few a strong, fighting to stay alive, and whenever they come up, I can't stop thinking about what would have been.

"You know you miss her. You can't just forget about her. You will never forget about her. You love her," part of me whispers.

Author's Note: hey guys sorry for another author's note, I just wanted to let you know that the next chapter is also going to be from Tobias's pov since this chapter was kinda long, but I'm not done with him yet. Plus he's Four/Tobias/Theo, I think he deserves two chapters. As always, happy reading!!