wishes | lee yubin

five.

the whole apartment was just so empty without yubin's presence. we always walked home together after school, there was no exception and now i was sitting here in a room with posters of groups, each member looking at me with his own unique smile. and i felt guilty that i couldn't give them mine on return.

i had a lot of homeworks for the weekend and more exams coming, yet i was sitting on my bed and doing nothing. if i had started learning for biology, i wouldn't have concentrated enough to remember a thing.

"lee siyeon." i whispered the girl's name with an anger in my voice. i was a bit scared of what she could do to my loving friend. but there was no way i could change anything now.

so as the clocks were showing the number five, i stood up and sleepwalking left the apartment. the walk back to school was the longest i had ever taken since i was too nervous about what will i have to face during my arrival. i realised i cared too much about my friend's activities, i shouldn't have been like this.

when i stepped in the building, the sport hall was decorated with so many flowers i couldn't count them. it was a really beautiful sight i stopped thinking about yubin and siyeon for a moment but when i saw two people on stage in black suits and sunglasses, my worries came back.

siyeon was now proudly talking to kim minji - her best friend and school actress - and gestured with her hands like crazy. i couldn't catch a sight of yubin anywhere on the stage, there was still a bit chaos as everyone was preparing the scene for the show.

i started walking through the crowd to be the closest as i could. i was glad the students formed groups where they were discussing sports and school and relationships (or whatever they were talking about) so it was easier for me to get to the stage.

i was now facing siyeon, trying to find the courage to talk to her. i was surprised when she noticed me before i did so. "yubin is in the dressing room." it was obvious she didn't want to be in my presence for longer than necessary.

"thanks," i muttered and headed to the backstage.

"hi," yubin greeted me with a smile as soon as i walked in. "how did you find me?"

"hey," i smiled back but kept an eye to the other girl in the room. she was drawing something on the paper on the desk. "siyeon told me."

"oh, right, she was here few minutes ago. i actually finished the work quite fast but bora is in charge for paintings and she kept me company after," yubin added excitedly and point to the girl at the table. "she even showed me her drawings, they're amazing."

"let's go out, shall we?"

i completely ignored the part with bora and left the room, hoping for yubin to join me.

"wait, i wanted to see the play," she protested. "i helped them with preparations and i'd be so glad to see it."

i turned around and met her pleading face. i looked down on the ground because i knew i'd fall for it again. of course, i'd stay there and watch the play but i really didn't feel comfortable in the crowd of people.

"will you do this to me," i asked and finally dared to look back. "just for once, please."

"okay," she finally agreed. "what's with you though? you look kinda tired, did something happen?"

"let's go out." i took her hand and led her out of the building. i didn't say anything until i made sure there was no one around us.

"tell me, how is lee siyeon as i friend?" i stopped in the school garden and waited for her to answer.

"why are you asking?" she paused for a second before she continued. "first, she's not my friend, i only helped them with preparations. second, she isn't a bad person as you think."

"will you promise me you won't talk to her again?"

"why can't i? but yeah, i promise i won't."

promise. a word that doesn't mean anything, yet a lot of people put too much trust in it. and when they're broken, they're still willing to believe in promises. looks like this world will never change.

"are you jealous?"

"no." i lied. "why would i be? i just don't want you to get hurt. siyeon isn't a good person, okay? i'm just worried, that's all."

"hey, don't worry about me," yubin came closer to me and gave me a warm friendly hug. "i can take care of myself."

i leaned in and wrapped my arms around her waist. that was what i needed the most in the moment, to stop the time and just feel the steady beat of yubin's heart against her chest.

"we can go to our apartment now if you don't want to stay here. we still have the whole evening so we can take the chance and watch a movie or series," she suggested. "but you're in charge of dinner."

"sure," i smiled while resting my chin on yubin's shoulder. "can i at least choose the movie?"

"sure. but no 'the perks of being a wallflower'. you know i can't comfort you and give you tissues forever."

i giggled. she knew me so well. "damn it, you ruined my plan."

although she was tiny unlike me, she didn't cry nor was scared during movies. so it was her duty to comfort me in those times. and i love these moments because even though the emotions were fighting in my head, she always could calm me down and made me feel saved.

when we came back to the apartment, the sun was about to set and was throwing shadows in the living room. we both spent all evening watching tv not caring about anything else. the best evening i could ever ask for.