This work of art is going to be, just a daily journal about my struggles day to day, trying to rediscover who I am, what I want, what I feel, and what I I can do to help me change anything I don't like, what can I do to be a better mother, and who...
In all honesty I had a pretty good day today.. And as frustrated as I was mentally, it didn't bum out my whole day. I finished my hair, but I haven't taken pics of it yet. My mother and I played the game, Dance central 2 on the Xbox 360 Kinect! I beat her.. 3/5 🎊 would've been all 5 rounds but she got mad the game wasn't picking her up so I started losing on purpose. 🙄 I cooked!! And I mean really cooked lol!! I love to cook! When I cook things for the first time and it comes out how I want it to taste, sometimes I can feel the taste on my tongue, and because of that, I sometimes forget to test the flavors beefier eating lol🤣🤣!!! Surprisingly though it's always PERFECT 🤩 🤤🤤. Tonight I decided to go all out and cook a big meal, kinda lol but still. I made white rice, with a brown gravy from scratch, collard greens with neck bones FIRST ATTEMPT TONIGHT 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🥰🥰🥰 and they were perfect.. my Mama said they were delicious!! Listen I was relieved to hear that!! Lol I baked this pork shoulder, that was juicy asf and tender omg!! Did some Mac and cheese, that keep me going back to the pot cuz it was so good.. and ofc CORNBREAD. Can't have a meal like that with no cornbread!
An: However I did not make it from scratch but I will very soon promise! Krustans cornbread! Or zatarans honey butter cornbread!😋😋😋😋😋😋
Today I don't have any complaints. I don't feel upset nor frustrated, nor sad. Hopefully this can last this way from now on! I love this feeling! When I'm able to be myself for more then two damn minutes.. I didn't have to be "just a mom" for 2 hours and that's cuz I was dancing to music in my living room! Listening to music is my safe place! It brings out a part of me that, I can't wait to start showing!
Reminder: you're NOT as flexible as you once were, start off slow! 😂😂
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Note to reader Lol I was on Instagram and this popped up! And because I looked at my nails, just now and I see that they still aren't done it reminded me of this quote! 😂🤣
Sometimes I wonder what would I do, if dancing wasn't in my blood?
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To this day I still can't answer that question. I've always loved dancing. I hate messing up after knowing the moves. I love that I can dance to just about anything. And I do mean anything well except heavy metal!! That just isn't my cup of tea. Ciara is my girl okay!!! I been a fan since she started back in '03 when GOODIES dropped, dancing for me took a whole different turn for me. I used to want to move like her so I studied. I know she's not a SANGER but she's a singer, great mother, honest role model, and all in all she reminds me of me..
SN: csquad 4life! 🤞🏽
I'm finna go to bed I feel good, and I'm Praying tomorrow is the same!
An: go fold them damn clothes! !!
P.S. Always remember to dance like no one's watching, even if some one is, that shouldn't stop you! Point is: DONT LET ANYONE STEAL YOUR JOY! 😄😄😊😊💯💯✍🏽
