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Kepa Arrizabalaga- It's going to be ok

This is going to be set during the caribou cup final, I know it's a little late but has being requested and this has been the only chance for me to write this.

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How can seconds change everything? How can emotions just change in a flash. These questions were swimming around in the back of your head as you fall to your seat after your boyfriend's penalty. That kick seemed to change everything people around you screaming abuse at Kepa, the media already trolling him. Kepa had struggled with hate for as long as you have met him and while he had his down days recently it seemed to be more ups as his confidence within him and on the field improved but you knew how much of a setback this was going to be.

Your heart sank for Kepa as you saw him moping around the pitch as he collected his medal and congratulated the opposing team. His head permanently focused on the grass that only lifted to give a forced smile to someone.

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"Hey keps, you ok babe?" you smiled sympathetically at the Spaniard who just got into your car

"Can we just not talk please I'm not ready?" Kepa again forced a smile onto his face

"oh ok well do you want to pick some food up on the way home?" "We could get your favourite?" you offered hoping you could slowly crack his shield

"I don't mind"

"Well I mean we could-"

"y/n please just leave it I don't want to talk"

"sorry"

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You arrived home about 45 minutes later and as soon as you got home Kepa took himself of to his game room slamming the door like a teenager. While you was sympathetic with him and understood his anger and disappointment he was the most stubborn person you had ever met and he wouldn't listen to any advice you tried to give him he would just spiral out of control. But you hoped this time would be different because he was different he made so much improvements over the last several months and you hoped and prayed this final didn't just throw all of his and yours hard work out of the window.

"Kepa can I come in please." you asked knocking on his door

"Just go away please I'm not ready" Kepa said as his voice cracked making it clear he was crying

"Babe come on I want to help please."

"Just go" Kepa said raising his voice

You knew Kepa meant nothing by his raised voice or attitude it was almost like his protection because he still hated you seeing him so vulnerable but you knew the only person that could break it down was you which is why you had to keep trying.

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"I have left some dinner outside your door, I thought you might be hungry" you said before your turned away

"Wait" Kepa said as he opened the door

"I want to have it with you"

"Oh ok I just thought-" you said confused

"I know but I want to be with you, theirs nowhere else I would rather be" Kepa smiled and this time you could tell it was genuine but it was very broken and a smile that held so much emotion

"Come here" you said opening your arms up for him which he instantly accepted

"I'm so sorry" Kepa sobbed

"For what babe you've done nothing wrong at all and especially not to me"

"The way I spoke to you, you was just trying to help and like always I push you away I don't deserve-" Kepa said as he began to spiral

"Hey, hey look at me ok it's fine you have nothing to be sorry for ok I understand your weren't ready to talk and you acted out of that"

"I just feel so bad mi amour I have let everyone down" he said continuing to sob

"Babe the blame is not all on you ok, yeah you missed the penalty but the moments leading up to that isn't on you. It was the team that failed not just you individually"

"But If i had just saved one or scored"

"Yeah and maybe you could be the hero again or maybe that wouldn't have being enough. Theirs nothing you can do now ok, we can't turn back time but beating yourself up about it isn't helping you or the team. They need you"

"They would be better of without me"

"Who got them to the caribou cup final? "Come on babe I can't hear you"

"Me" he hesitantly replied

"And who won them the super cup"

"Me"

"And who saved their asses while mendy was away?"

"Me"

"Exactly their no better of without you in fact they do better with you. All this pressure your adding and letting others add is not worth it ok. Why do you play football?"

"Because I enjoy it"

"And"

"Because it makes me happy"

"So by adding all this pressure you begin not doing it to be happy and that's not ok. You do what you do because you love it because theirs nothing else you would rather do and that's what you need to remember. Don't let today and all this hate stop you from doing what you love. Your going to be ok I promise"

"God I love you so much Mi amour" Kepa smiled while laying his head on top of yours and his arms snaking around you waist

"We will get through this together, it's me and you always" you smiled

"You really are amazing I don't deserve you" Kepa lovingly smiled at you

"Now that's ridiculous I don't deserve you now come on and let's eat dinner although it's now probably cold" you laughed

A/n: Hi everyone hope your all ok. New update so hope you liked this not one of my best but the writers block is killing me and this was a request that desperately needed posting. Also I know caribou is spelt incorrectly but it won't let me alter it.