Are You Afraid Of Me? - Natasha Romanoff X Reader (G!P) (ON HOLD)

Not A Monster

"So tell me what happened." Pietro asks as he sits down next to Y/n on the open door of the jet as it steadily flies above the clouds, the world below seeming insignificantly smaller to the both of them as they look down at it.

"I messed up. I said some things I shouldn't have, which Wanda heard and she called me out on it."

"What was it you said?" Pietro asks, wanting to know Y/n's side of the story after only hearing what Natasha had to say.

"I called Natalia a monster."

"Okay but she called you one too so I don't see why that should be of great significance." Y/n turns her head to look at Pietro, her eyes growing wide for a second before she sighs and looks back out to the world below.

"But Natalia is not a monster, that is where it differs."

"But you are not a monster either mama, and if Wanda isn't there to defend you against such bullshit then I will be. I do not know what is going on with my little sister but whatever it is she better snap out of it because it is quite clearly hurting you both." Pietro states as he moves to stand up holding his hand out for Y/n to take.

"I am a monster Piet. I have lived for billions of years, done things that no man, woman or child should ever have to hear about. I've allowed planets to be destroyed all because I owe my life to someone. I will never redeem myself for what I have done, I am a monster inside and out. So yes Piet I am a monster. The worst kind of monster because I hardly regret any of it. I can't allow myself to regret any of it because the feeling of the guilt crushing me will destroy me. I can't be there for my family if I am being held back by the grief of billions of years of monstrosities."

"Take my hand." Y/n scrunches her brows at Pietro's calm but demanding tone, doing as he says and he is quick to hoist her off the open jet door. "Follow me."

Pietro presses the button causing the jet door to close, watching as Y/n stands there blankly looking at it fiddling with her hands before sighing and moving to follow Pietro to the front of the jet. He presses a few buttons that make the chairs at the front move to the side and the tint on the window lightens. Pietro watches Y/n carefully as he sees a few tears spring to her eyes, her palms flat against the window as she looks ahead.

"How can someone be a monster when every night they watch the sunset with the ghost of the person they love. The person they married. How can you say that after all those years of loving and caring for Peggy that you are a monster. How can you think that after taking me and Wanda in at the age of 10 when our parents died, looking after us and caring for us, loving us, for 6 years non-stop, that you are a monster. How can you think you're a monster when you are currently trying to find your best friend after she was taken back by her captors. How can you tell me you are a monster when you are crying because you are looking out of the window to the sunset that we are chasing. How can you call yourself a monster when you have so much love to give, and so much care and kindness for the people around you. The people that love you can feel it. I know Wanda does, but she is obviously going through something to make her act so stupid."

"It is not that simple Piet. I have a dark past."

"Fuck the past." Y/n's head whips around in shock as Pietro simply shrugs.

"Look mama. I just mean that you can't look at your past and only pick out the bad parts to justify someone else's actions. You can't go around trying to justify what other people do when it is nothing close to your fault, because Natasha has a nasty past too but I don't see you pinning her actions on her past. You are pinning her actions on your past and justifying them with stupid reasoning. Mama you can't let her take control of your life. She doesn't like you, so be it, but you can't put in the effort to be civil to her if she is not going to do the same. Even if it's for mine and Wanda's sake, because that will just make everything worse when it comes to you and Natasha going at each other's throats."