Sunset Camp

Prologue (Part. 2)

I felt like I lost track of days. Though, it hadn't been more than 3 days actually.

"I feel like I won't ever be the same, happy person anymore, it feels like nothing even matters anymore." I wanted to give up. What could even make things better now?

It's hurtful to think that all of that was for nothing...

I hadn't opened my phone these days, debating whether if I should turn it on or not, I decided to finally turn it on. Maybe shuffling through social medias would help me cope with this, and as soon as I do,  I get an email notification.

"New Email Attached" - Huh? what's this?

I had nothing to lose, except time, so I decided to open the email at this point.

"Hello Tim! 

It's a pleasure to inform you that you've been selected as a camper on 2019's Sunset International Camp!

Here you'll be able to meet, befriend and enjoy time with teens from all around the world, it's a great opportunity and we would love for you to be part of this year's Sunset International Camp which will last a total of 7 Days!

The dates of the Sunset International Camp are July 8 to July 15, so school would not be a problem. 

Please reply to this email by confirming your participation until June 30, 11:59PM, we'll proceed to send the location and other details afterwards. 

We welcome you with warm hugs and we believe you'll have a great time.

With Love, Sunset Camp Staff!"

"Oh my god, WAIT. I completely forgot I applied for the Sunset Camp International for this year. It literally slipped my mind." For once, this week wasn't as painful as the past days.

It's been a dream of mine to go for so long, everyone who went there talked about their experience to this day.

They talked about how it actually changed them positively, how many new friends they've made and how they'll never forget any of the moments of that time. My friends who went there remember their camp experience in details.

"But how can I go now, I don't feel like doing anything in particular, let alone go there being like this. It'll ruin everyone's mood." I started to feel guilty, while holding my phone with a doubt.

"And I don't feel like it, plus meeting new people, it doesn't sound like something I want to carry out now. But I still want to go, it's like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, I've literally dreamt for this moment, I can't just not go. I feel utterly confused. I don't even know what to do."

I was battling with my thoughts back and forth and I couldn't decide which was the better option for me. I decided to tell my mother, and hopefully ask her which would be the best choice.

"Mom, I got an email from the Sunset Camp, I got accepted on the International Camp for this year."

"Tim that's awesome! When are the dates, when will you be going? It's going to be an amazing experience, and since you've been not been out for a while, It'll be amazing darling." She was finally smiling for me, once again.

I felt extremely worried. I do want to go there but at the same time I don't. Making a choice, all of the sudden is harder than it used to be.

I wanted to go because I didn't wanna miss it, I had been wanting it for so long. But still, would it be okay for me to go? My boyfriend just broke up with me on the day of my birthday, and I'm still taking pain from it.

"I don't know mom, I don't think I want to go."

"Oh darling why, you've always talked about wanting to go there, your chance has come, you've earned this, why don't you give it a try?" With a worried look my mom asks.