Saw You Again

(13) playful fate

TW // toxic parenting, self harm, violence

Days passed by both of them aren't doing well. Both questioning whose fault is it? who to blame? both hurting what to do?

Sunoo aced his exam but his brother didn't comeback. He hates it, he feels like he got betrayed. He lose everything but he's still doing his best, he still wants his brother to comeback. He feels so incomplete without sunghoon, he loves sunghoon so much that he's going to let go of their relationship before it got toxic.

On the other side, sunghoon questions himself is it because he chose love over friendship? if they stayed friends all of this won't happen. But do they regret loving each other? No.

Because of them, they learned what love is. What emotion is it, how to express and how to take it. Because of each other, they learned how to love... but love isn't love without the pain.

it's for you to fight it... or just take it and give up.

If they love each other.. why did they give up so easily? maybe love isn't enough especially if time and everyone surrounding them isn't favor.

But to be honest, they could at least fight for their love... but how naive of them... they think it's for the best.

Days passed by they're both competing with each other again. Sunghoon's father forced him to lead the rank again and sunghoon hate it. He wants his father to spare an attention to him but not like this. While sunoo is still doing his best, pressuring his self. He wants his brother to comeback.

"For this presentation, sunghoon got the higher score."

"For the research, sunoo aced it."

That's how they compete, they're always tie so both striving hard to lead. Even though they want to give each other the credits, they can't. They both need it. Selfish if selfish but that's how they compete fairly.

how funny is it?

where did the love go?

And for the past days, both of them are struggling facing their own family. It's tiring, as soon as they broke up the pain hurts more. The break up is supposed to benifit both of them but they're just struggling... hurting... dying

"YOUR BROTHER DIDN'T COMEBACK BECAUSE OF YOU! YOU'RE THE PROBLEM HERE!" sunoo's mother said as she slapped him

"WHY ME!? why is it always me!? i'm doing my best! I'm tired." another slap as he talked back

"Don't even talk. Go to your room, review." his mother said while pushing him to his room and locked him up

'this is tiring...'

'i'm tired. so tired.'

'did i even made a right decision?'

There's no day of him being clean, he can't do anything but hurt himself. He's tired, so tired that he want to runaway but he's scared for his two younger siblings... what if he leave and all the anger of his parents will just make his siblings suffer.

'so tired.'

He sneak out of his room and immediately run... he's going to his favourite place the seaside.

Tears keep on falling, he's hurting. He saw a bench and was about to sit but someone sat on it and it's no one but the love of his life...

"Sunoo, why are you here!?" sunghoon asked while wiping his own tears, he's crying too

Sunghoon's here possibly because of the mistreatment of his family again. Sunoo knew him very well.

"Nothing." sunoo immediately answered and hid his wrist but before he can walk back sunghoon pulled him

"We can't sleep hurting, you know that."

"Now, sit and cry all you want. Pretend i'm not here" sunghoon said as he guide sunoo to sit on the bench

He saw sunoo's wrist but didn't even try to talk, he's kinda offended when sunoo hid it because sunoo wasn't like this. He can't hide anything to sunghoon.

"Why are you here?" both of them asked in sync and just laugh when they realized

The beach witnessed it all, from the rants, their cries, laughters, complaining and more... the beach witnessed it all...

all the pain in their eyes that both wishing they could at least fix everything and freely love each other.

Playful fate letting them meet again...

cruel isn't it?