Tied

Chapter 11 : Falling

Nichole POV

I been really latching onto Harmony . I really like baby girl , the feeling is unexplainable . I haven't talked to Lina ever since she found out & I was cool with that . I lost feelings anyway , but I admit the way I told her was mad foul . It is what it is though .

I want to cuff her so bad , but I wasn't getting the time of day & it was really starting to bother me . I didn't want to rush into anything , but I wanted a chance to prove something of myself . I wanted to prove that I could be loyal & committed to someone . I had a feeling it wouldn't be hard to do that with her either . Our relationship is weird . I wouldn't know how to really label it . We never chill at school except in third & sixth period & really that's the only reason I look forward to those periods . We text all day & night though so I guess that's a plus .

I was in fourth period texting her of course , avoiding getting caught & I decided I wanna ask anyway . She ain't gone reject me right ? Wrong .

Me - You my girl alright ? Okay

Harmony - No I'm not

Me - Yes you are , we date

I tried to play it off & be sneaky with it , but I failed .

Harmony - You already know how I feel about that , I'm not read to be in a relationship

Me - Okay fine

I wasn't tripping off of it that much , but it did bother me . I mean that fact of the matter is , we both not in a relationship anymore . I wanted to make my move & take my chances before it was too late . I didn't want her going nowhere & I didn't wanna leave myself . I thought I was in love with Lina , but maybe my mind & heart was playing tricks on me . I felt something when I was with her , but I feel something completely different with Harmony . I might have to reevaluate my decisions & think shit out before I start making assumptions . I'm slowly but surely falling in love with her & I never loved nobody the way I love her .

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I walked outside with one of my bestfriends & saw Harmony with one of her exes . I tried my best to ignore it , cause I really wasn't the jealous type . When I'm saying this female is changing me to the fullest I mean it . Everything she do effects me . I kept walking , making sure I was still ignoring her . I was almost sure she wasn't looking in my direction until she called my name .

"Nichole ." she said .

"What ?"

"Where y'all going ?" she asked .

"Nowhere , why ?" I snapped back .

"What's wrong with you ?" she asked .

"Nothing , I'll see you later ." I walked away & continued to walk around the school . I felt my phone vibrate signaling that someone texted me . I could bet money that this was her . I pulled it out & read the message .

Harmony - Why u acting like that

I laughed a little to myself . I could never have a face to face conversation about anything serious because I could express how I feel . I act like I'm fine , when I know I'm really not .

Me - Nothing , you look happy with her so continue doing what you was doing , I'll see you later .

I could never be left alone . I could never have the last word , she always needed answers & it lowball annoyed me . It was like she was basically forcing you to tell you whatever you're thinking or feeling .

Harmony - I already explained this to you

Me - Alright , so you don't need to explain it again

I was pissed . That was the downfall of liking somebody who still got feelings for their ex . She's part of the reason why Harmony's holding back . I can't get a chance because of the past & it was aggravating . The bell rang meaning lunch was over . I slowly walked to my next period waiting the rest of the day to just end .

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Here I am 6 hours later & we still talking about the same . I get she still feeling her ex , I don't wanna keep hearing the long ass speech as to why we can't be together . That shit wasn't holding me back none . Actions speak louder than words right ? I was at least worth a shot . We were going back & forth , until she said something , that meant the world . I don't think she meant to say it cause the way the message was typed seemed like it was a mistake , but it still made me feel some type way .

Harmony - I'm falling for you , but I can't get into a relationship right now & you know that . Um maybe if it turns into more later I'll consider it , but I just wanna be single right now

I blocked out all that other shit . I was focused on the first part of the message . I had to confirm & make sure my mind wasn't playing tricks on me .

Me - You falling for me foreal ?

Harmony - Yes ...

I knew how I was feeling , but I never knew how she was really feeling . I was always too nervous to ask . I didn't wanna be feeling something more than what it really was . I had to do something now . I'll play the patient game , but I'll slowly get her to be mine . It'll take time but she was worth all the time in the world to me . I was feeling way too much about a female that wasn't even ready to settle down with me , but I don't care . I don't care how long it would take . I just wanted it to happen . Sprung isn't even the word to define how I feel . We haven't done nothing at all to make me feel the way I do , but I mean I guess .

I haven't talked to Nast in a minute & I was glad . I didn't need her trying to get all in my head . I didn't need no distractions . I was focused on one person & surprisingly , it was gonna stay that way .