SECRETS | j.b

1: "I see the red lines on your thighs are still healing..."

I woke up to the song Treat You Better by Shawn Mendes.

I sigh and let the song play out, it's only junior year and I already feel like my life was an endless cycle, seeming to go no where. I got up and just before the song ended, I shut the alarm off so it wouldn't repeat its whole process.

I open the music app on my phone and took it into the bathroom with me to hook it up to the speakers I have. I showered quickly, got out and dried off.

Today, I got dressed in a low cut black shirt, black skinny jeans, black running shoes, and a necklace that says love in black letters.

I let my hair air dry and curl up. I put on some lip gloss and that was it- no other makeup because I didn't need it. I grabbed my bag and skipped down the hall to the kitchen. My mom was in there getting food ready for my dad. I quickly got an apple from the refrigerator and a bottle of water.

I quietly slip out of the house so my mom doesn't notice me. She didn't need to worry about me so I didn't distract her from tending to my dad. I walked to school, as I usually do everyday. It is only four blocks away and I like walking, it gives me time before and after school to think about things.

I ate the apple and drank all of the water. When I got to school, I threw them away and walked in the direction to my locker. Taking a few seconds to get the code right, I open my locker to get some papers that I will need throughout the day. I take two books out and start to put them in my bag when I heard a "SLAM" right next to me, causing me to jump and look around.

"What do you want Justin?" I sigh angrily, I'm used to this. He has been doing this almost every day since we started high school. "Good morning beautiful," he said trying to put his arms around me.

I backed away, closing my bag. I blew him off the same as I always did. Why didn't he get it? I want him to just leave me alone, or at least would stop hitting on me and just talk to me.

I rolled my eyes at my own thoughts and started to walk to first period. I sat down and took out my homework from last night.

I got through the lesson and paid attention even though I had been through this same chapter twenty times when I was studying last weekend. After class I went back my locker to drop off my book andI closed it. I met up with Jasmine and we walked to second period.

"So how many times has he hit on you today?" she asked not even bothering with his name since we both knew who she was talking about.

"Once and I'm guessing that's why," I said pointing to Justin and Asia, his on and off girlfriend. Sometimes he would hit on me when ever he saw me but when Asia was there he would act like he didn't even know I existed. It was weird that he acted that way and it pissed me off a lot. I felt special when he would give me that attention because other than Asia I was the only girl he flirted with like that. Sure, he looked at other girls but me and Asia where the only ones he hit on or flirted with.

Yeah he is weird.

I rolled my eyes and we went to class math my favorite subject. I sat down and then got to work on the worksheet.

  ~  l u n c h ~

I walked in with Jasmine. We got our food and went to sit down at our normal table like we always did. When we finished up our lunch, we went outside where other students are all talking amongst each other.

Justin walked up with his friends and took a seat next to me. "Hey beautiful," he said putting his arm around me.

"Hey sexy," I said messing with him, he always seems to fall right into it.