SECRETS | j.b

9: "Please, it's not what it looks like. He kissed me, I didn't kiss him."

Its been two weeks since I told Elizabeth that I loved her, and two weeks since she pretty much told me she didn't feel the same. I have managed to keep Asia away from her and from killing anyone else.

I spent most of the time pretending that I was listening to her but really, all that was on my mind was Elizabeth. I haven't seen her much other then in class and at lunch. She's been talking to Cody a lot more and I'm not sure I'm happy with that, but there is nothing I could do. I promised her I would give her the time she needed away from me, and if watching her get comfortable with another guy is what she needs, then I will do that.

Will I?

I have been waiting for the text that would tell me she was ready to talk but as the days went on, I wasn't sure that would come.

I was walking to class when I saw what would make me wish I had never shown up that day. I turn the corner to first see Elizabeth with a smile on her face but my enthusiasm quickly turned to anger when I watched Cody lean down and kiss her.

So much for not wanting to be in a relationship.

I turned around and walked the long way to class.

Elizabeth's POV

I was talking to Cody and we were laughing about something that happened at lunch with him and his friends, when I felt like he was moving closer to me. I wasn't sure of it until his lips met mine. I didn't push him away right away because I couldn't fully comprehended what was going on. When I did, I almost had to keep myself from slapping him, "Cody please." I said stepping back.

He put his hand on my arm stepping closer to me, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't of kissed you." He said with a little smirk on his face.

"Its fine just please... I already told you I'm not ready for a relationship and I'm still trying to figure out the whole Justin thing." I told him, looking down at my shoes.

"Elizabeth, why are you so hung up on him? He obviously doesn't care very much about you."

"Cody." I exhaust. "Please don't do this again. There is no way that he would of said all that he said if he didn't mean it." Explaining this to Cody has been the reoccurring theme of today. He thinks that Justin had said those things to maybe get in bed with me. He theorizes that he's getting 'tired' of Asia, and need someone like me to spice things up.

"If he really meant it, I don't think he would still be with Asia."

"He's only trying to protect me from her."

"Yeah" he says, tapping on the lockers with his fingers. "and I'm only trying to protect you from him. I don't want to see you hurt. You've already been through so much." He didn't even know the half of it. I've been through so much more then he could ever imagine.

For him to say these things about Justin made me a little upset. He didn't know anything about Justin and he didn't know much about me. Justin had been there for me when I needed him and didn't judge when he found out about my bad habit. Something in me knew that Cody wouldn't do the same, that he couldn't be there for me the way Justin was. He had taken my hands in his and was looking deep into my eyes. I can't stand here any more, I have to leave not only because the bell is about to ring but because I am uncomfortable.

I pulled my hands away and turned my head, "I have to get to class I'll talk to you later." When I went to leave, he took my hand and kissed me again. "Cody please." I pushed him off and I left not knowing what was going on.

When I got to my history class, the teacher clapped her hands together and made an announcement, "OK class we are starting a new unit on the Revolutionary War. We are going to be doing a project and I will be pairing you guys up myself so don't even ask." she said returning to her desk and coming back with a paper in her hand.