My Best Friend | Jikook / Vmin FF

Let Go

Next morning, Jimin had been sleeping when Jungkook came in, and woke him up.

"Jimin! Hey! Wake up, it's a weekday! You'll miss breakfast with Taehyung!"

Jimin had opened his eyes on the mention of the name. He groaned.

"I am not going there. We are fighting Jungkook. I am eating with you."

He said that and covered his face back with the bedsheet but Jungkook removed it.

"None of that, please! Go, have breakfast with him. He's leaving in a month, right?"

Jimin went stiff at that and suddenly he was no longer asleep. He blinked at the ceiling for some time, thinking if he should face the music today and then groaned as he looked at Jungkook once again. "Why are you sending me away? What is wrong with you? You always pout when I leave for breakfast. You should be happy. I want to eat with you."

Jungkook chuckled. "Oh I do pout, don't I? But not when you two are fighting and you are so sad because of it." He was not smiling anymore.

Jimin saw Jungkook's smile fall and he sat up with his hair sticking out on all sides to look blankly at him. Jungkook sat down beside him and looked a bit guilty as he spoke.

"He came to see me yesterday."

"WHAT!"

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Jimin barged in loudly as he got into Taehyung's flat, using his own key this time.

"KIM TAEHYUNG!"

Taehyung was eating cereal and reading something on his phone when he looked up wide eyed, with a spoon still in his mouth.

"Jimin"

"How dare you?"

"Sorry?"

"How dare you talk to Jungkook about me!"

Taehyung gulped, kept his cereal and phone away as he got up to see a frustrated angry Jimin still standing in front of him.

"Can you sit and listen?"

Jimin looked like he wanted to kill him and cry later as well.

"I D-DON'T want-"

"Please, Jimin-ah..." Taehyung cut him as he used his heavy calming baritone voice.

Jimin huffed like a child and sat down far from Taehyung making him chuckle, much to his irritation.

"And now you are laughing at me!" Jimin snapped.

Taehyung smiled, tight-lipped as he got and sat next to Jimin, bringing his chair closer. Idly Jimin expected himself to tense up given the confessions and confusions earlier but he felt no tension.

This was his best friend. He had slept on him whenever he was sad or needy over the years. The two were as close as they came. Taehyung put his hand on Jimin's arm caressing him, soothing him and Jimin could feel his tears loosening down from his eyes and he widened them to not cry.

"Jimin-ah, you know I love you right?"

Jimin should have felt weird but he knew what love Taehyung meant. It wasn't the one sided love each of them had for the other at some point in their lives. It was the love they shared since they were nine. The love that got them looks of adoration and jealousy from others. The love that made them just know without knowing. That love was hard to come by and it was above many other things in their lives. He nodded as he sniffled.

Taehyung leaned forward as he brought his head closer to Jimin, joining their foreheads from sides and wrapping his arm around.

"Would you forgive me then? For the sake of our love?"

"W-why?" Jimin's voice was still shaken. He could see Taehyung's eyes were shining as well but his voice was still soft and endearing, nothing like his.

"Why did I go to see Jungkook?"

Jimin shook his head. "Not just that. Everything. Why now? Why?"

Taehyung did not reply. Jimin took the opportunity to ask more.

"You could have told me. You were unhappy when I hung out with Jungkook. I tried to make amends. But I did not know you had so much going on rather than a mere left out feeling! I could have done more had I known. I would have-"

"You could have what? Loved me back?"

This time, Jimin did not reply. But Taehyung never needed the words to know.

"You love me as a friend Jimin-ah. I know I confused you all of a sudden but that love that you had for me back in college doesn't exist anymore. I could see it already, so I didn't tell you."

"But I did tell you. We had decided we'll always-!"

"And was it healthy for you?"

"..."

"Tell me honestly. I know you value us a lot, I do too. But was it worth your health? The rejection? My affair? Our forced friendship that year? I knew how much it affected you Jimin-ah. I can never do the same. I know you are not careless, that's just your giving nature. But I am not as self-sacrificing as you are. That what we did back then, made us what we are today. But it took a lot from us, a whole lot from you especially. You shouldn't have suffered that much."

Jimin looked wide-eyed at him. He didn't know that Taehyung knew how bad it was for him. He couldn't help but feel good that his struggle was being addressed, no matter how late. He felt fortunate that Taehyung was so observant. He felt loved.

Taehyung went on.

"And It's true. I do love you in more ways than one. And I also knew you liked Jungkook. For some time, I thought I could do it, go on pretending all is fine. But only the day before, when you cursed me with that shove and shock in your eyes, I realised how stressed I really was."

Jimin snorted as he remembered the day before, when he pushed Taehyung, cursing him for confessing so ignorantly.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have.."

"You did the right thing. It was not supposed to happen. We buried it for decay. I dug it like it was something fresh out of the water for everyone to see. I was stupid."

Jimin hitched his breath asd he shook his head. This was not stupid.

"No you were not, Tae! That's not on you. I overreacted."

"You didn't. I know you were seeing a therapist that year and also the year after that."

Jimin gasped. No one knew that.

"H-how?"

"That's beside the point Jimin. The point is I have been a terrible friend. Which is why I chose to reach out to our current friends, take help, talk it out. I know you did the same, when you reached out to Yoongi hyung. You have grown up."

Jimin smiled. He was not surprised that Taehyung knew where he was.

"Hobi hyung?"

"Hmm. I wanted to talk to you yesterday, I talked to Hobi hyung, and I went to Jungkook, told him to cut you some slack because I was giving you shit."

Jimin blinked as he looked outside the window, his anger long gone by now. "I hadn't told him."

"I know. He is a good guy, he took it really well."

Jimin hummed as he smiled a bit thinking about the guy.

"I love him."

"I know."