love like this ★ genshin impact

꒰ mix ꒱ scara - denial.

fem reader ! angst to fluff

not very in character, foul language.

Admiration, lust, or love? You felt everything stated for him, you wanted him to love you back. (Y/n), 4th of the Fatui Harbingers, known as (c/n). That was what you are. But then the 6th had no interest, even in conversations. You wanted to cry your lungs out after being told how hopelessly devoted you are to the man. However, you couldn't do so that.

In Snezhnaya, you were used to the cold temperature and attitude of people.

You didn't want to show any emotion that would make them call you weak, to put it in words you had to be hideous. But it was so hard to ignore him just how he did to you, so you strictly ordered them to call him to your office, just to see if he'd show respect to your authority. "But My Lord, Scaramouche had locked himself in." your head maid says, making you just furrow your brow in irritation. "Guess I'll go myself then." You reply, leaving her shocked. There was something wrong you had to know, and it wasn't just the fact that Scaramouche's been ignoring you. It's the fact that he locks himself in just not to talk to you.

You understood he'd never bow down to you, and you let that slide just because of your feelings. But then he didn't want to show even a slight bit of respect it care to your existence, which made you upset. "Changlí, if anyone ever knocks at my office please tell them I'm busy" You tell your head maid, making her bow as you leave.

At Scaramouche's Office

"Name?" Scaramouche says as respond to your knocks, it was rather rude and arrogant of him, but then he had a reason. "It's (y/n)." to your surprise, he opened the door for you, gently. "What?" simply, he asks in a sassy tone, which made you giggle to yourself. "I'd want to disclose something just a bit, do you mind?" You state, only receiving a nod from the puppet.

He then closed the door behind the both of you, making you sit on the provided seat by his table, him sitting on his chair. "So what did you want to say?" He scowled, making you upset about it, but then you wanted to keep the conversation formal as you can. You didn't want to mess up just one confession. "Well, as your superior, I'd like to give you a good amount of mora as a thank you for protecting me that one day.." You say with hesitance, remembering you also wanted to confess. "That's all? Okay." He says, not letting you finish with a pissed tone.

"6th, I'm not done just yet." You say, making him finally pay attention to you. "Then continue." He responds coldly, as if he didn't want to make a conversation. "Scaramouche I've come to say I love you," You stared into his eyes, straight. He then just stared back at you in full disgust and ridicule, making you assume he didn't accept this. "Excuse me?" Scaramouche giggles, making you embarrassed at the fact your bowing down to someone with a lower entitlement than you. "I certainly don't do the same. Ahaha, see yourself out."

You hum in response, exiting the office as you try to hold back tears. You didn't want to feel this, and you felt sorry for yourself for creating a liking to someone like him.

You exited the manor, in search of somewhere to be in, alone. Sure, you were caught up with the fact he had rejected you so easily like anyone could despite how close you two have been in the past, but it doesn't mean just because of that you'll be leaving everything behind. You then reached the oh, so warm, Liyue. Where you originally belong, in search of your close friend.

Xiao. Sure, he was an adeptus. But that didn't mean he wouldn't be available for friendship. He had treated you so differently from others and this had made you wonder why. But you shook it off and went to your very favorite spot, calling out his name.

"Xiaoo!"

"I'm here, (n/n)."

You then turn around to see him, cheerfully. Yet the pain resides in your eyes, which made him worry. "Xiao, long time no see, huh?" with a shaky voice you greet, getting a worried face from him. "There's something up, what is it?" He then changes the topic, making you a bit sorrowed about the fact that he had always listened to you.

"Well, you do know about my feelings for Scaramouche, right?" painfully, you said. Making him nod in response with a worried face, telling you to go on. "He sorta rejected me, you know?"

"He's probably in denial."

In.. Denial? You thought to yourself as it gave you hope, as you lit up, staring at Xiao's serious yet calm face, reassuring you everything will be fine. "I.. I never thought of that." You tell him, as he seems to be called. "Oh, (y/n). If I only had enough time for now.. But anyway, do take care. See you around." He gave you a gentle smile that was rarely seen, making you lit up to return to Snezhnaya.

On your way, you got stopped at your tracks by a Fatui agent that served Scaramouche. Making you wonder why he had sent one of his servants to you.

"Master (y/n), my Lord Scaramouche would like to chat.." the lady bowed in front of you, delivering the message her Master had wanted you to hear.

"Good timing then, I was about to head to him. You're dismissed, thank you." You say, confident about your words since you were enlightened- which was pretty obvious just by a glance.

You went straight to Scaramouche's office, and by your surprise he wasn't there. So you had decided to go to his room, where he would probably be at the time. You knocked at his door gently.

"Come in, (y/n)." Scaramouche says sternly, knowing the person whom had knocked was you. You enter quietly and amused by how clean his room was considering how much fucked up this man was. "What did you need?" You ask, not a sight or sound of nervousness coming from your mouth as you see his small smile plastered on face.

"About our previous meeting, well" He stopped, hesitating to deliver what's on his mind. "I've realized you weren't joking, and I'd like to say.. I.."

"You?"

"(Y/n) I do the same." Scaramouche's face then heated up as he was not used to saying his feelings out in front of anyone. Which made you a lot comfortable you were alone. "Do the same to what?"

In a sarcastic tone you ask, teasing him a little bit more, happy about what's in your sight. "Shut up! I love you too.." He says, mumbling the last part as if he wanted to bottle his feelings up. "Oh, is that so?"

You teased, yet again. Making him flustered and pissed at the same time which you had thought of as cute. He then gets closer to you, without a warning, kissing you a little bit aggressively yet passionately. Breaking the kiss after a few seconds.

"What was that fo-"

"Just to shut you up.." stubbornly, Scaramouche whispers, enough for you to hear. "Aw, that's bold of you." You say as his face goes redder every second you speak. You could say he's reserved and stoic in public, but here, he was indeed different.

You leaned in for another kiss, happy about the state you two currently were in. Humming as it lasted, you tugged on his hair as he held on tight to your hips, making you stay on where you currently were.

"When are we gonna tell the others?"

"Immediately after this.."