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I look at the girl who's in the middle of breakdown, she's standing and probably will jump later to commit suicide,i always see her here. I look at her eyes, looks like she suffered really hard..

"Mabubuhay ka rin naman pag namatay ka,what's the point of ending ur life now e ganun pa rin naman mangyayari sa next life mo?stupid."I said.

Hinila ko siya pababa at nagulat ako nang bigla itong umiyak, para namang umaway ako sa bata at biglang umiyak na tinatawag ang mama.

"Why is the world so harsh?"she said while crying."Hindi ko naman pinangarap na mabuhay pero bakit ganun?bakit pa ako nabuhay kung ganito lang din ang aking pamumuhay?I feel like a living corpse all the time."Her voice cracked.

Hearing those words.. I can relate to it and i think i understand kung ano ang nararamdaman niya..I don't want to see her cry it's annoying..

I didn't say a word at the same time not because i don't want to it's because i can't..Instead i gave him a bottle of water..She stared at me and matutunaw na ako rito kakatitig niya.

"What?I said.
"Nothing"she replied.

Ininom niya na ang tubig at buti nalang kumalma na siya.. To be honest i was amazed to her beauty noon pa lang...Lagi ko na siyang nakikita but ofc hindi ko gusto ipahalata na matagal ko na siyang kilala dahil noon kinekwento siya sakin ni tita gia but i didn't have that right timing na kausapin siya..Nagkataon lang ito na nakausap ko ang babaeng katulad niya..To be sure na hindi niya malalaman na matagal ko na siyang kilala, i asked her some questions.

"Matagal ka nang andito?"I asked.

Alam kong matagal na siyang andito pero yun lang ang naisip ko upang marinig ko ang boses niya, she talks like an angel really...Her voice feels like home.

"Yeah u could say that,ever since i was born dito na ako.Eto na ata tahanan ko e"She said and laughed at the same time.
"Daldal."I said sabay tayo para umalis.

Gusto ko na umalis dahil baka pag nagtagal ako rito magmukha na akong kamatis sa sobrang pula, she's really beautiful like everytime she smiles my hearts beats faster so i want to make an excuse by being masungit.

"Hey!where r you going?"she said

"To my room"I said at tuluyan nang umalis.

Hindi ko na narinig kung may sinabi pa ba siya dahil dali dali akong pumunta sa kwarto ko, i fall for her and still falling, i always admire her from afar just like the moon....

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"It's confirm sir, 1 year nalang ang natitira niyang panahon dito sa mundo.." the doctor said which made me and my dad cry..

I finally get to talk w her but... It's us against the time.... And i want to stay away from her as much as possible to avoid hurting her...Kasi 1 year nalang....mawawala na ako sa mundo so let me love her from afar nalang...

I don't want my dad to see me crying..So pumunta ako sa tambayan ko which is the rooftop sa hospital namin.... I cry and i cry until i hear a footsteps at first i didn't care about it kasi may mga karton naman sa likuran ko sure akong hindi din nila ako makikita..

I badly want to live forever....to live with her...but the world doesn't want to.. I didn't even tell her what i feel for her and that ever since then i fell for her and still falling... Parang hindi ko na sasabihin sa kanya kasi mawawala rin naman ako rito....

"Ryu?"

My beat skips the beat when i recognized the voice who call me by name...It's Clea....

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