As I was walking beside him, silence enveloped the environment again. It is just awkward because I feel the intense feelings between us.
Aside from that, we're both drenched from bathing in the falls.
"Do you really love that guy, Crystal?"
"Huh?"
"The guy that you were talking about earlier?"
"Oh, about that....ahmm, yes" sh*t I'm not sure how to tell him that he's the one I'm talking about.
"So, Sebastian, who is the woman you're referring to?" I asked as well kanina pa 'yon gumugulo sa isip ko. Gusto kung malaman ang sagot niya pero nahihirapan akong magtanong.
Tumaas ang kilay niya sa sagot ko at ngumisi pero kita ko ang lungkot sa mata niya " Did I mention that I have a woman? As I previously stated, my lips are reserved for the woman I hope to love in the future..for the future" he corrected.
"So you're thinking about the future?"
"Nope I haven't given it much thought, but when I kiss you, I suddenly feel guilty for my future wife" he teased
Ano raw?
" Okay, I hope your future wife that you are talking to is as beautiful as me" I fired back because What he's saying makes me angry.
Tumawa siya sa sagot ko pero natigilan nang mapagtanto ang ibig ko sabihin.
"It will not be how she looks or what she owns that will matter Crystal... It'll be the compassion in her heart and the love the she had for me in her soul"
I paused for a moment at bigla akong kinabahan did my loved is enough for him? He aims for the ideal, and that's scared me. I'm not really a good person. I'm a snob and not family-oriented. I also don't donate to charity. I didn't help the poor and I didn't really care much for the people who have less.
He also stated that I was just a young girl and.... thinking about the future. I'm sure I'll be mature as well. But what about our predicament? I fell in love with someone who kidnapped and abducted me... who despises my family.
Bumigat ang dibdib ko ng mapagtanto ang sitwasyon namin.
Hindi ko alam kung ang lamig na nararamdaman ko ay dahil lang sa hangin na dumadampi sa basa kung katawan o dahil sa kinakabahan ako nang naisip na naman muli ..kung bakit ako nandito.
Malayo pa ang lalakarin namin at lakas loob kung hinawakan bigla ang kamay niya. Damn! move.
Napatigil siya sa ginawa ko at napatingin sa kamay kung nakahawak sa kamay niya.
Damn! Damn! sh*t my stomach churned with butterflies.
Ganito pala 'yon..It's better than the kiss we shared earlier, and as I hold his hands, I get a shiver down my spine. I feel like I could cling to it indefinitely.
Akala ko magagalit siya pero hinawakan niya rin ang kamay ko.
Walking in the middle of the forest with his hands holding mine. All the ironic feelings that I felt back then..vanished. Because in his hold, I felt safe and secure.
The music comes from the wind, birds, and leaves, whispering to me that getting knocked down in life is a given... and holding onto it was a choice.
"So this is love, I cannot explained, yet it explains all" he said with profound affection.
Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya, huminto ako at nilingon ko siya. Akala ko ba hindi niya ako gusto?
"Love?"..."Is that what you're feeling when you hold my hands?" I asked grabe ang takot at kabang nararamdaman ko. Binibiro niya lang ba ako kanina? I thought he doesn't want a girl?
"I just realized that..." he paused for a moment "It makes no difference whether you are a girl or a woman. I only know one thing for certain: I never stopped loving you. Even though I despised you, I had feelings for you. In the midst of the crowd, I fell in love with you. I adored you in all circumstances, at all ages, times, and places."
