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nineteen.

nineteen.
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I woke up the next morning with a long text from Justin.

Justin:
I know that you're afraid of what will happen. I get that. You think I'm gonna make you fall for me all over again and I'm just going to take Karen back again. I promise you that that won't happen. I just want your forgiveness, is that too much to ask for? Abigail I don't think I felt this strong about anyone I've dated before. You're different. I like different. I like you. I'm nearly begging for another chance because I don't wanna give up on you. Don't shut me out for one stupid mistake that I'm trying to fix. I really like you...

I locked my phone and placed it face down on my bed. Then I rake my fingers through my hair and stand up. That's entirely too much to take in at seven in the morning.

I don't want to be a bitch towards Justin. I don't want him to keep asking me for a chance and then me turn him down because then I look like the bad guy which, I'm not. I'm just looking out for myself, y'know?

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I gripped the straps of my backpack rather tightly and exhaled deeply. There Justin was. He was standing at his locker talking to Kyle and Jarred. Do I go tell him now or do I wait until he's alone?

I just watched him as he hung onto one of the straps to his backpack, letting the other one hang. His hair appeared extra shiny today. Now he was smiling. Gosh, I've never seen a smile like that before. I examined him in his white pullover hoodie, blue jeans, and red skater sneakers. It was a simple outfit yet he could make it look so good. Why would he want someone like me? I keep wondering that.

I realized that the more I stand here and watch him, the more self conscious I will get. Soon I wouldn't even have the courage to talk to him face to face. Which is why I need to just get it over with.

I tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear and found myself walking down the hall the get to Justin before the bell rang. It wasn't long before his eyes meet mind and he gulped hard. Then stuffed his hands in his pockets. He looked nervous.

"We'll catch up with you later." Jarred said. He nudged Kyle and they disappeared down the hall. It was beginning to clear out which meant the bell would be ringing in any minute. I can't be late to History because Mrs. Cooper would totally give me afterschool detention. It was now or never.

I open my mouth to talk but the bell rings loudly in my ears.

Shit.

I inwardly cursed myself for taking so long just to say the words. I probably won't even have the courage to say them later. Stupid me.

I begin to turn around but Justin speaks.

"Don't go." He says. "I know you have something to say so say it."

I bit my lip and looked away. It's always hard looking into his eyes. "Uh, the bell rang I should probably just go."

"Please don't go." He said. He placed his hand on my shoulder and traveled his fingers down my arm until they were interlocked with mine.

I looked up at him and breathed through my nose. "One chance Justin. That's all you've got."

A smile was already across his face and now he was caressing my cheek with his thumb. "That's all I need."

I return a small smile. I just hope I'm making the right decision. I don't wanna get hurt. At least not again. I'm almost positive that Justin will keep his word but there are a lot of girls at this school that were dying to get a chance with him. If they find out that we're seeing each other, they're gonna be talking big time. Since I've become friends with Natalie and the rest of the gang people eased up with the whispers and isults about me. But I was still wasn't a class favorite. It's like I can never win.