Confession || JinLia ff

Part 15: Jeju Day 3 (part 2)

Lia P.o.V

I have no idea why I reacted the way I did with Ryujin this morning. Crying and then falling asleep next to her? Maybe me telling myself I love Ryujin has made me scared. I am scared. I'm scared I will lose her because she deserves better. I can't give her that happiness. She might also find it weird, because for God's sake, we're best friends. This thought has been consuming me for the whole day. We had just finished dinner at one of the highly regarded Jeju restaurants. The food was great and I was close with Ryujin, not like the night before.

Everyone was at the restaurant, drinking tea but I excused myself to take a breather. I just wanted to be alone and clarify my thoughts, walk around the beach front. The night sky looked beautiful and reminded me of a moment I had with Ryujin. When we were much younger, I think she was 9, our parents had left us on the beach to play until they got back from the mall. It was a pretty bad idea leaving 2 incapable kids at the beach alone. Ryujin thought she saw a 'An Octopus Fairy'. I didn't know what that was back then and still don't, but it was cute. I believed her and just like that, we went on an exploration.

We searched the whole damn beach for that Octopus Fairy but never found it, obviously. What were we even thinking? Ryujin always had a way with her words and she still does. Ryu hasn't changed one bit, other than becoming extremely beautiful and intelligent.

I continued to walk around the beach, just appreciating the sky and Ryujin. I felt my nerves calm down until I saw something that I wish I didn't see. And heard something I wish I didn't hear.

"I'm not going to tell Lia! Yuna, it could ruin our whole friendship you know!"
"Oh come on Jin! I think Lia should know, how much longer are you planning on hiding the truth?"
"Yuna, you don't understand. Lia might not take this very well."
"Why do you think that?"
"She might think it's rushed or might not think it's sincere or- I don't know. I just don't want to worry her or trouble her. She's going through something right now."

Ryujin and Yuna are.. together?! Wait, since when?! How?! No, why, why, why Yuna?! So I was right? I was standing behind one of the beach rock barriers so they couldn't see me. I instantly fell my face cover in my tears that were uncontrollable. My heart felt crushed, destroyed, broken and empty. It felt as if the universe turns its back on me and slapped me across the face. I was really in love with Ryujin.

That explains everything that happened last night, their sudden closeness, they're together. They're together. No, no, Ryujin would have told me, she would have for sure.

I ran back to our hotel with my broken heart and face full of tears. Nobody needed to see me in that terrible state, especially Ryujin. I know she would worry and... I wouldn't be able to explain. 'Oh sorry I was crying because I'm madly in love with you but you love someone else?'

But I was right. Hours later, Ryujin came back to the room and asked me what happened.

Ryujin P.o.V

"Liaaa! So this is where you were! I was looking for you around the whole beach and area, but you're here." I rushed to her to hug her. She slightly pushed me and avoided eye contact. That's never happened between us.
"Are you okay Jisu?" I sat next to her.
"Yeah."
"You don't seem okay."
"It doesn't matter."
"It does matter Jisu. Please tell me what's happened."
"It doesn't concern you Ryujin."
"Are you sure? Because seems like you're upset... with me."
She finally looked at me and I saw her tearful, red eyes. She's definitely been crying for hours.
"Lia..." I wiped off the tears that remained.
"It's nothing." She answered coldly and got up.

"Did I do something wrong? Please tell me Lia." Now I got up and grabbed her arm to stop her from walking away.
"Ryujin, please, just leave me." She wriggled her army away.
"No, please tell me."
"Dammit, Ryujin, leave me alone!"
"If you tell me what's bothering you then I will!"
"You're so annoying, just leave alone, I don't want to see you right now!" Lia shouted at maximum volume. That really hurt. My eyes filled with tears. This has been the first time we've fought, the first time Lia shouted at me. I took a step back and let go of her arm.

"I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry Lia."

She looked at me for a few seconds. I understood, she didn't mean to say that but something's really bothering her but she can't tell me.

"I'm sor-sorry R-Ryu, I-I did-didn't mean t-to." She kept on crying.
"It's okay, I understand." She came closer and hugged me tightly. Very tightly might I add.
"Please tell me what's wrong Lia." I tried to confort her. "You know you can tell me anything right."
"I know, I know but I can't right now."

Now I'm thinking I shouldn't tell her about my feelings, she's not feeling well for this.

Lia, what's wrong?