Daydream - CamiloxReader

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Even if I told Angelo I could go back alone, he insisted and took me home. Papi didn't seem too happy about it but I didn't care. I went upstairs and took a quick shower, I don't know if the fountain's water is clean but I don't wanna risk anything. I get in my pajamas and lock myself in my room.

I've been doing that a lot since we moved here now that I think about it... Am I being selfish? I spent sixteen years taking care of my family and now that everything is fine I just...gave up? Papi and Mami fighted because of me... What does Luna think? And Ryu? Inaya is too young but still... Am I overthinking? Maybe... Do I care? Neither.

I took a deep breath and unlocked the door, going downstairs. But no one was here, just a note. "We're at the Casita if you're looking for us, sorry Y/N!". I looked at it for a minute or two and sighed, I'm not welcome there anymore. I don't know what I was expecting.

I decided to take care of the chore while they were gone. It took me a few hours but at least I wasn't thinking about anything while doing it. I wasn't feeling like eating so I just went back to my room.

Maybe I should paint something else? No, I cleaned everything. I'm not gonna put paint everywhere again... I looked at my last piece and sighed. I need to get my feelings out. But I don't want to tell anyone about it. Maybe it's time to use my secret talent, writing.

I grabbed a pencil and my favorite letter paper. I took a deep breath and started writing.

"Camilo," no. I don't know why but it doesn't feel right. "My dear Camilo," weird. "To my favorite chameleon" is also weird. Why can't I think of anything? What was my first impression of Camilo? I thought he was cuter than I expected... I can't write that. "To my flirty best friend..." yep! perfect!

"To my flirty best friend,

Well, I wish I could call you something else. I hope you'll never find this, otherwise it would be really embarrassing. But I need to let it all out so I'll pretend you're reading it. I learned a lot recently. New home, new friends, new feelings... I didn't think the Encanto would bring me so much, to be honest I didn't know I'll stay here for the rest of my life. I was losing hope and like a miracle, we found you. The amazing family Madrigal and god, you guys really are amazing! Not because of the gift, even if it's pretty cool, what's amazing is the way you guys make everyone smile whenever you're around. They don't smile because of the magic. They smile because they like you all, for who you are. Not for what your powers can do. At least that's what I think! But what's more important is that after the months I spent here, I realized something. I fell in love with you, Camilo Madrigal. Even if I think you knew that already. You knew what love felt like and you're the one that made me discover it. I'm happy you're my first love! I'm truly happy but... I thought about all the recent events a lot and I decided that I made a decision. I need to get rid of those feelings. As I write this you're hanging out with Sofia. Because Alma asked you to. Well that's what she said. I know Alma hates me and you always listen to her, no matter what, your madness toward her doesn't seem to change anything so... I don't think it'll ever work for us. I'm talking as if you loved me back. No. You'll fall for Sofia, I know it. That's why, once again, I'll bury everything. I'll use all of my acting skill so you won't see anything. So no one sees it. Take care of you Camilo. Please be happy while I try to forget. I'll always be by your side, never as your girlfriend but always as your best friend. I'll say it once,

I love you. I love you more than anything.

Y/N"

I sealed the letter and smiled through my tears. It feels good to let go. I don't know what got into me but I decided to hide the letter in Camilo's painting. I don't want him to see it but a part of me is telling me to do it. Camilo's birthday is in 4 days now. I heard voices downstairs and quickly hid the painting, I joined everyone right after that.

- Hi mi querida! I'm sorry but you know-

- I know Mami, it's fine! I promise-

- It shouldn't be fine. I don't like the way Alma is talking to you. You're my daughter. She should respect you.

- It's fine Papi-

- Y/N!

- Yes Ryu?

- Camilo told me to give you this!

He handed me a piece of paper, I took it and sat on the couch.

"I won't be staying at your house tonight, I realized Sofia isn't as bad as we thought. So, I don't mind sleeping with her anymore. Thank you for taking care of me but it's fine now. And maybe we shouldn't hang out as much as we used to? I wanna get to know her more. That way you can spend time with your family! Or Angelo? I heard he liked you a lot- I'll see you on my birthday!"

I holded my tears. It felt like someone took my heart away, I don't think I can breathe. Is that what loves bring? Pain? Tears? I can't believe he really said that. I smiled and turned to Ryuji, he looked worried.

- You're sure that Camilo is the one that gave it to you?

- Yes... But Y/N are you-

- I'm fine! Just tired... And you must be too! So go to sleep little monster

I kissed his cheek and he smiled. Luna turned to me.

- What did he say?

- He's not sleeping here anymore. Apparently Sofia isn't as bad as he thought. I don't know if I can believe it though.

Luna didn't say anything, she just hugged me. I looked at the rest of my family and they immediately joined us.

- Crying doesn't make you weak, mi querida

- Your Mami is right, it's fine if you cry. I'll just take care of him after that.

- I'm not sad... It was predictable. Told you his personality was flirting. We're just friends...

I hugged them back and kissed their cheeks while smiling.

- Good night everyone!

I went to my room and locked the door. I don't know why but I looked through the window. Maybe I was hoping it was a joke and that he'll come... but he never came and I just ended up crying. I hope Dolores won't hear me...

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Writer : _noyaas (me)