✦ - Genshin Impact • Oneshot [English] - ✦

✦ - «I love you, okay ?» - ✦

There's a Kazuha x Depressed!reader !

Trigger warning: angst, self harm & suicide
Don't read any further if it can trigger you, take care <3

It was a bright and sunny day. Though, you were at Kamisato Estate. You used to go there when you weren't feeling that good.

Today was one of these days.

Thoma was away with Ayaka for an mission, and Ayato was busy inside.

You were just looking at the sky, next to the sort of bench. 

You sighed, putting up your sleeve.

Since when did you used to do this already ? Maybe too much time.

And it wasn't kind cuts. 

All were deep, and even if it heals, you'll always have its scars. 

But you couldn't tell that to anyone, right ?

Who would think the great traveler, who helped everyone, was the one needing the most help ?

Whenever you were seeing your body, you were just feeling so ugly. All over your body, you had cuts. 

On your arms, on your legs, you even started to do some on your belly and hips.

You had some friends, because even the Kamisato clan was your friend. In Mondstadt and Liyue you had friends too. As Venti or Zhongli, even Raiden and Childe.

You even managed to have a small friendship with Scaramouche.

So why weren't you able to at least be really happy ?

- «Why can't I be normal again ?» You thought to yourself.

You couldn't help it.

You were seeing him.

And her.

Going along well.

It was killing you inside.

Was it really jealousy ?

- «Of course not! I would never be jealous for such a stupid thing!»

You stopped in your sentence, taking out the small cutter you used to always have with you.

You let it slowly touch your skin.

- «...I would never be jealous over one of my boyfriend's friend...»

You let it cut you, closing your eyes as your breath started to go faster and your eyes became teary.

- «...He loves me... Right...?»

That's how you did it over and over again, until you couldn't handle it anymore.

You hid your cutter, looking over all your new cuts.