He Stole My Heart (Heart Series #3)

04

"But don't you want to feel that kind of love again?" I asked him.

"If I will also feel that kind of pain after, no, I don't want to." He answered.

Hindi ako nakasagot. This is what love do to people. It scares them. Scared to be close to another person, scared to love again, scared to try again. Ako, I don't think I will be in a serious relationship.

"How about you?" He asked me.

I smiled. "Like I said, I don't feel it. At ayoko. I don't want to depend on someone else. I don't want to feel someone else's love, care, and attention. I grew up without them so I don't really need them." Sabi ko. 

Ayoko kasing maramdaman 'yon sa ibang tao tapos aalis din naman.

"Do you know what love is?" He asked me.

I smiled bitterly. "To be honest, I don't know... If the love I gave in the past was love or what. I don't know if I'm capable of loving someone. I don't know what love is..." sagot ko. Paano ko malalaman, e hindi ko naman naramdaman.

He nodded. "You can still find a way to know, to feel, what love is." He said.

If there's a way to know or feel it, I would refuse. Natatakot ako. Natatakot ako na baka kapag nalaman o naramdaman ko ito ay hanap-hanapin ko na. Ayoko... Ayoko ng ganoon.

"Paano kapag sinabi kong gusto kita?" Biro ko.

He looked at me. "Ha?" He asked. "Stop joking around." Seryosong sabi niya.

Napanguso naman ako. "Have you tried having flings?" I asked him.

Tumango siya. "Of course," He said. "I already had a fling when I was in second year. Also did a one night stand with some random girl I met in the bar.."

I looked at him. "Would you do it with me?" I asked him. "What if I told you I want to have sex with you right now?"

Nakita ko ang paglunok niya. Umiwas siya sa akin ng tingin at huminga ng malalim. "Jenwel, you're drunk." Seryosong sabi niya.

I shook my head. "No. I'm not. I didn't drink that much." I said. "So, if I ask you... would you do it?" Tanong ko ulit.

"No." He said.

I smirked. "Final answer?" I asked him again.

He bit his lower lip. Napatingala siya at umiling. "I won't do it." He answered. It was almost a whisper.

"Okay," I said before turning my back against him. Pumasok na ulit ako sa loob.

Nagpaalam na rin ako na aalis na dahil may pasok pa bukas. After exam ay sobrang saya ko dahil sa wakas, makakapag-inom na kami ng mga kaibigan ko. Nagkita-kita kami sa Pop up dahil doon ang usapan namin. Sa sobrang excited ko, nauna ako doon. And I didn't expect to see Levi here. He's with his friends. 

I act like I didn't see him at hinintay na lang ang mga kaibigan ko. Hindi rin naman nagtagal ay dumating na rin sila. Umorder lang kami ng alak at pulutan. Beer lang ang iinumin namin. We just want to celebrate.

"Paramihan tayo ng lalaki, Jenwel," Fiona told me.

Kumunot ang noo ko sa kanya. "Ako pa talaga hinamon mo?" Sabi ko sa kanya.

Tinawanan niya lang ako. "Wala ka nang kinukwento na lalake sa amin." Sabi niya.

"Oo nga, nakakapanibago!" Sabi pa ni Eli.