I thought I'd learned my lesson
I swore this time it'd be different.
I told you I wouldn't trust
Wouldn't like
Wouldn't fall
And then it was your pillows and my skin
Your breath and my hair
Your enchantment and my sorrow.
Everything was exactly how it was supposed to be
But then I realized you don't live your own life
As those around you live it for you outside your own skin
It is not your own but a facade made to fool
We were supposed to stay
But she called and you loved her and
In a blink of the eyes I'd kept open,
Too scared to close them for fear you'd disappear,
She was the one who held your affection
After hours of you telling me it wasn't true.
Now I am closed off
No longer the open book
I am bound with steel straps
No more will my heart be on my sleeve
Instead,
Knives.
The same ones you used on me
Now glued to my hands and hold shield around my heart
So soon and so stupid I was
For wanting to give you all of what was left of me
Damn.
When will I learn?
