You know what it's like when you look at alphabet soup?
Everything jumbled up, no real words, nothing in the bowl making sense..
That's what's in my head right now.
I feel like I'm running on a treadmill, never moving forward.
One half of my soul is pulling me in one direction
And the other half in another.
I'm trapped in a jail cell
Instead of four walls, it's two and they are made of flesh and bone.
My rib cages are claws that rip my heart open any time it tries to fly.
As I lie in a sea of cloth to hide the tears that put me to sleep,
I think of how I wasn't ever good enough for anyone that I'd wanted to stay in my life.
I thought I had everything getting back into place,
now my world is flipped upside down.
All I truly want is to be happy..
Will I ever again feel like I'm not worth the ground everyone walks so proudly on?
Faking every emotion is easy for someone who never had to feel it in the first place.
Not me. Not ever.
How can I walk beside someone who won't let me know where I can put my feet?
