let me defend myself
the words i recite in my mind
i need to show them as they're blind
i have to show them i am kind
before i open my mouth in public
the sentence i analyse
all my words
i remember to censor
better to just
talk about the weather
i never wear black
because i wish to blend in
not intimidate
i want you to be able to relate
i have to say please
and thank you
and sorry
so that i am sure
you won't stand and worry
but it isn't fair
i don't need to defend myself
i am always kind
i am always thoughtful
something you would know
if you didn't judge wrongfully
just like you
i can say things
and have opinions
without being radical
just like you
i can feel upset
i can wear complete black
and just like you
i can have days where i am rude
i can be mad
angry
and in a terrible mood
i can't defend myself
when i am just like you
i am as human as the dirt i was made from
i am as much flesh and bones like you
and every day
no matter what ruthless things you say
i choose
to show you love
and i know you want to show me
how we're not the same
because i can be poor
uneducated
i speak with an accent
i can be dirty and filthy
i can be mentally unstable
i can be traumatized
i can hate your words
i can hate your mind
i can be in pain
i can be depressed
and i can be pale from all the stress
do i have to prove how human i am
to a world
who refuses to see me as a normality?
the true shame of humanity
leaving us with no amnesty
but still
every single day
no matter what ruthless things you say
i choose
to show you love
