𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 | 𝐯𝐤𝐨𝐨𝐤

f o u r

"i'm sorry, love." he mumbled. then, he kept quiet for a few minutes until he calmed down, making sure his voice was stable and clear before starting to speak.

"how are you, baby?" he asked, biting his quivering lips. "you're doing good, right? i hope you're happy up there, in heaven." he rested his sweaty palms on his knees, looking up at the sky. "i miss you. a lot." he sighed.

"was i too late?" he asked. "i hope not. i had no idea it's already been a year. it feels just like yesterday that you were holding me and telling me you would get the stars for me." he chuckled sadly, his tears stinging the back of his eyes. "i just," he took in a deep breath. "i still want you."

he wiped off a tear that trailed down his cheek and continued. "i wasn't ready to live without you. we promised to stay together and in love till our last breath. did you get so tired of me that you had to leave so early?" he chuckled sadly. "well, you could've atleast told me about our baby," he held back a sob. "i couldn't come here after your funeral. it was too suffocating." he pulled up his sleeve, brushing his hands against the long scars. "i wanna die." he said, hair blowing with the wind. "i don't care, i just wanna be there with you." he saw a broken glass bottle and reached for a piece of glass. he hovered it above his wrist for a moment, closing his eyes shut.

no, he thought. i shouldn't do this. not again.

but a part of him wanted to do it. he shook his head, pulling the shard away and keeping it aside.

just one cut, he shakily grabbed the glass and hovered it above his wrist. fuck it!

slowly, he pushed the glass down. it pierced his skin, and blood started rolling out the fresh cut. he wasn't planning to die, of course not. he was a fighter. but it was a way he'd learnt over the course of months. it'd help him feel less pain.

"taehyung!"

taehyung looked up to see yoongi, hoseok, and seokjin running up to him. yoongi reached him first, coming to a halt in front of him.

taehyung looked up at him with glossy eyes, his face damp with tears as he hid his bloody hand behind his back.

hoseok kneeled down beside him and gently took away the glass from his hand. he took out a handkerchief and wrapped it around his wrist tightly, all the while taehyung was watching him with blank face yet tears were dripping down his face.

"tae," he rubbed the junction of his neck and shoulder, pulling the other to his chest. taehyung bit onto his lips, bursting into loud cries as he rested his head against hoseok's shoulder, hands holding onto his shirt lightly.

"taehyung," seokjin sighed and took a seat beside him. he grabbed his hand and rubbed it lightly. "let's go," but taehyung shook his head harshly, backing away from hoseok and seokjin.

"n-no! go away!" he wailed, trying to pull the handkerchief off his wrist. "let me die! just let me die!" he shouted, not really meaning it. but seokjin grabbed him from behind while hoseok wrapped the handkerchief around his wrist again. taehyung resisted for a while before he just gave up. he slumped back against jin's chest.

"please," he whispered, "let me go. they're waiting for m-"

"stop!" seokjin shook his head. "stop, tae. calm down. no one's waiting!" he rubbed the other's back, holding him down when he tried to get away. taehyung sobbed into his neck loudly, shaking in his hold like a fragile leaf.

seokjin rested his chin on top of his head, breathing in harshly as he closed his eyes, a tear rolling down his cheek as he tried his best not to break down in front of the others.

"we should go home." hoseok said after a few minutes, a hand covering his face. "yoongi," he looked up to see his boyfriend missing.

"tae, let's go." seokjin stood up on shaky legs and helped hoseok stand on his legs too. then, he bent down and grabbed taehyung's shoulders, pulling him up. taehyung gave up resisting. he let himself be dragged to the exit. seokjin and hoseok led him to seokjin's car and they opened the back door. yoongi was sitting in there, face hidden in his hands. hoseok sighed and gestured seokjin to take a seat in the front. seokjin agreed and sat in passenger seat while hoseok sat in the back seat. he pulled taehyung to sit beside him and closed the door, locking it right after. he closed the windows and pulled taehyung to him, letting the younger rest his head on his shoulder.

"sir," grace, who was sitting in the driver's seat all along, put her hand on top of seokjin's. "wha-"

but seokjin shook his head, looking to the other side as he leaned his head on the window.

"let's go." he muttered in a hushed voice. grace nodded and quickly started the car, driving out.

"yoon," hoseok sighed, pulling yoongi's hands away from his face to reveal his nose and cheeks tinged with red. his eyes were a pinkish shade. "c'mere. i got you." hoseok pulled him to his chest and hugged the two of the boys tightly, leaning his head against the back, closing his eyes when he heard taehyung sobbing lightly.

seokjin closed his eyes, biting his lips to not make any sound. grace looked over at him, watching him cry silently while biting onto his lips.

sighing, she turned her attention back to the road, trying her best to drown out the noises coming from the back.

•••

they dropped yoongi, hoseok and taehyung into seokjin's mansion. seokjin had ordered the maids to look after them. then, he and grace were driving back to the company.

seokjin sighed and looked at the empty backseat. "grace," he called out. "could you stop at a side, please?"

"sure." she nodded and the car soon came to a halt. seokjin unbuckled his seatbelt, put on some music and turned up the volume to the max and shifted to the backseat, careful not to hurt grace.

"continue driving please." he said. grace nodded, glancing at him from the rear-view mirror. he was crying now, looking out the window.

"sir," she tried to call out but the loud music overpowered her voice.

so, she just sighed and continued driving until they eventually reached their company.