I Won't Lose To Her (ThomaxReader)

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I look up over to him, tears in my eyes. "I just don't know what to do anymore." Ayato gives me a sympathetic look.

"(Y/N).. Thoma has moved on. So should you. Being impulsive isn't going to help you in this situation. Come, sit back down." He leads me back to the couch and sit down. He wraps his arm around my shoulder and gives me a gentle squeeze. "Now be honest, tell me how you feel (Y/N)." He shows me a reassuring smile.

"I lied.. I never stopped thinking about Thoma. He was the only one I wanted all those 10 years. Of course I'm jealous he's getting married to someone else." I wipe away some of my tears. "I have been being too rash haven't I?" I sigh. "Now all that's left for me is to go."

"Don't go (Y/N)." I look up to him, his face looks pained. "Don't leave us again, Thoma has missed you I'll assure you." I don't think I'll hurt Thoma anymore by leaving now. "I have too." What about everyone else I've left on this journey? I wonder how many times Gorou has thought of me, or even Kokomi.

"How many times did you think about me Ayato?" When did Thoma let go of his feelings for me? It was his right, I was wrong to think he'd do that to himself. I have been selfish.

"All the time." A small blush spread across my cheeks. "I worry about Ayaka, and while I watched you from afar I..." He trails off for a moment, but my lingering gaze gets him to continue. "I couldn't help but see the true beauty you possessed. Making everyone around you so happy.. Though mostly my ninja kept watch, I made sure to be there for the day you departed. Our last encounter, that rainy night." The departure? It's been so long, there wasn't anything memorable. Thank god I never thought aloud, definitely would've made him suspicious. 

"..uh. It's been so long. I don't remember that, sorry." I say a little sheepish. That day on the boat.. he wasn't there. So before I got on. It was raining, Beidou reassured me we were ready to go. I think harder, but nothing is coming to my mind.

"That's quite alright, I'll tell you."

Ayato's POV

I heard that (Y/N) was leaving, though we said our farewells it was not enough for me. I have gotten to see them on a much more personal level, that I have began to fall for them. I can not let them leave without letting me tell them how I feel. Maybe it will be selfish, however I can not let the opportunity slide. As I reached the docks, I was in rain attire. I could not let anyone see me, but as I saw the captain's ship in the distance I ran. Most likely drawing plenty of attention. There (Y/N) stood, soaking in rain. I pulled out an umbrella to shelter us. "Oh, thank you."

"(Y/N)." The ship was only getting closer by the second, it would be ready for them to come aboard any moment now. "You shall be missed, dearly, by I. I hope you take these words to heart, and see I hold no ill will when I say it. I am absolutely enamored with you." The ship's crew is ready to cast down the ladder.

"Goodbye." With no real acknowledgement to my words they left, they didn't sound upset or bothered by them either. It's almost as if I never spoke.

Your POV
As Ayato tells his tale all I can remember is the umbrella. The howling winds and pitter patter of the rain that day didn't allow me to hear it. I had no idea it was Ayato that day. However hearing this now has me blushing, I would've never thought Ayato could fall for me. "You.. like me? Or liked." After 10 years, there's no way he'd still be in love with a practically a stranger!

"No, it's like." My heart slowly started to pick up its pace, I can't believe my ears. "I still believe, especially after hearing how you still love Thoma, that you're the same person that came to Inazuma all those years ago." My eyes widen, have I been wrong about who I've chosen to love? "You asked me why I am not the one getting married, it is because I don't think I could see anyone shine brighter than thy." My face starts turning an extremely bright red.