✨Jj Maybank imagines✨

We could have had it all

Summary:Jj does something y/n never expected him to do.
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I opened my eyes slowly as the morning sun shined graciously through my window. I quickly got out of bed excited for the upcoming activities I had planned today as today is my birthday; I had the whole day planned every second would be filled with friends every minute filled with drinking and fun.

I was brought out of my thoughts as I heard a high pitched ding from my phone indicating I had a notification; my eyes lit up looking at all the messages I got from kie,John b and pope telling me happy birthday however my heart ached as I didn't get a message from my boyfriend, jj. I mean it was still early in the morning maybe he was sleeping.I was getting concerned as I hadn't seen jj in a couple of days he had been acting very distant lately like galaxies apart distant, I always try to call and text him to make sure he is alright and knows he can talk to me but without a doubt I never get a response.Maybe I'm being clingy that's probably the reason.

But it's my birthday so I'm not going to focus on that right now. I decided to get changed and eat breakfast really quickly so I could get to the chateau and see the pogues. Fifteen minutes had passed and I was already at the chateau as my house wasn't that far from John b's.As soon as I got close to the porch I heard a chorus of shush's and mumbled whispering and in that moment I knew what was about to happen I opened the door and my friends all shouted happy birthday.I was smiling so hard it hurt however my smile fell when I  noticed jj wasn't there.

"Where's jj" but I think Truly in the depths of my heart I knew the answer the awnser I feared.My friends all looked at me with pitiful eyes and an silence fell upon us.I sighed.

"You know what let's not focus on jj right now, i can check on him later " I smiled trying to mask the pain I was feeling internally; the feeling felt just like a dagger piercing through my heart left there alone to bleed.But thankfully my friends agreed with me to forget about it, during the day we had cake I got some birthday presents and we even had time to go on the HMS Pogue but throughout the day there was always an empty feeling; a little voice in my head reminding me that my boyfriend wasn't there, that he didn't care enough to come or even worse just forgot because this jj wasn't the jj the one I pictured in my head my Prince Charming it was the complete opposite despite jj's lack of presence and emotion towards me I still cared about him I still loved him and as much as it pained me to say I'm not sure if he felt the same.

It was getting late and we were still on the boat as much fun as my friends made the day trying to distract me from jj's absence I just wanted to get off the boat and go home I really did appreciate my friends effort but it doesn't change the fact jj wasn't here. So i decided I would ask John b if he could bring us back to the chateau he agreed of course and gave me a sincere smile which I half heartedly returned.As we got to the the chateau I told my friends that I was tired and that I just wanted to go home they offered to drive me home as it was quite late but I didn't want to be with anyone right now. After that I was just walking down the street to my house a few tears slowly running down my cheeks until I found myself walking to jj's house something I knew I shouldn't be doing however I wanted to confront jj about our relationship and how I wanted to save what we had left. I was determined it kinda felt like I was on a mission.

Before I knew I was knocking on the door no one answered I was about to walk away until I heard a noise coming from the inside of the old broken down house so I decided to enter the house a wave of guilt passed over me until I saw a trail of clothes leading to a door. My heart was rapidly beating so hard I thought I was going to beat out of my chest.I knew I shouldn't follow where those clothes lead but I had to.Cautiously I moved towards the door, my hand slowly reaching out for the door handle not knowing what I would witness behind this door but I was going to find out.I pushed open the door to see jj's body intertwined with a perfect blonde girl. He looked at me with guilt in his eyes, the eyes I once used to adore. Tears streamed down my face however the only 6 words left my mouth in that moment.
"We could have had it all"