L'Amour Fou (bxb)

Chapter 13

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I woke up after a well-rested sleep; now that my sleep schedule is back to normal, I'm starting to get dreams which I remember again, although they're pretty vague though. Anyway. That didn't bother me. I looked over to the alarm - it was 9:47. I panicked for a bit, but then I realized it was my day off today. Gathering the effort to climb out of bed, I opened the curtain to look outside the window. His car was there in the driveway. Could it be? He doesn't have work today? I entered his room to see a bed that was perfectly made, tucked and folded up. Well, I'll just have to see when I go downstairs.

After brushing my teeth and making my bed, I casually made my way downstairs. I went to the living room, but there was no one in there. In fact, when I searched all the rooms downstairs, he wasn't there. Wh-where is he? His car is here but he isn't. Why? Why did this have to happen as soon as I gained feelings for him? I went back upstairs to my room to get my glass of water until I heard a door unlock. Peeking from the side of the door, I saw across the corridor that he was there.

He stood there whilst rolling up his sleeves, then he stopped. He sensed my presence. He immediately made eye contact with me, then his eyes widened in fear. Then I realized that he just came from that room.
The forbidden one.
At this point, I knew exactly what was running in his mind.
'Did he see? Did he notice what was in the room? No. It would've been obvious from the look of his face.'
I knew he was paranoid upon seeing me, but I had to reassure him that everything was fine.

"Don't worry, I didn't see what was in the room."
"Oh thank Lord. I was scared so much that you did," he exclaimed with a relieved sigh.
"Damn, is that room really that bad?" I said whilst chuckling slightly to lighten the tense mood.
"No no, it's not really bad, trust me. It's nothing illegal or anything. Well.."
I looked at him, concerned, but also gave him the look that was meant to mean 'Why am I not surprised?'.
"Anyway. I promise that you'll find out eventually when I feel like you're ready to see what's in it."
"Ok. I mean it doesn't even bother me anymore." That was a big lie. I was dying to know what was behind that door.

We began to go down the stairs as my eyes fixated on him. He was wearing a black, tight, buttoned-up shirt which I could see every detail of his body. I could see his back muscles clearly as he was in front of me. His dark brown hair looked very fluffy and soft - I just wanted to run my fingers through it and play with it all day. I want to cuddle with him all day with his arms wrapped around my body. I looked down at his neck, which was a slight tanned color that looked foreign. Even though it was slightly tanned, it didn't look American. Well, who knows.

I didn't even realize when we reached the floor as I was busy caught up with staring at him. We got to the kitchen and he opened the fridge to get some food. His sleeves were rolled up and presented a toned arm with veins that appeared on the surface of his soft skin. He had a chiseled jawline and perfectly carved nose shape. His broad chest stuck to his shirt which formed a sharp outline of firm muscles that looked sculpted delicately.
"Hello? What do you want to have, I said," He exclaimed, breaking my moment of daydreaming about him.
"Oh uh- I don't know. Toast? Anything, I don't mind."
"Why didn't you respond the first time. Were you daydreaming?"
"Uh- no. I was thinking about uh- my d-dream that I had last night."
"Oh really? What was it about then?"
I panicked. I had to think of something quickly.
"Uh- so uh- it was really weird."
"Yeah I got that part, carry on," he interrupted with a subtle smirk on his face.
"Ugh, I just don't remember it ok. I was trying to but I couldn't. What did you dream of last night anyway?"
"You."

My heart skipped a beat. Did he seriously just say 'you'? As in me? No, it must've been my imagination.
"Me?"
"Yeah, you. I dreamt that you eventually escaped from me. I tried so hard to stop you, but you managed to run away from me. Then I started the car and started chasing you. But somehow you were faster than me. And then I immediately stopped my vehicle when I saw red and blue flashing lights surrounding me. It was over. I was handcuffed and put inside the police van, knowing that now I was unable to escape."
"Wow that was a wild dream. It was actually slightly realist-"
"You won't call the police on me ever, right?" He questioned whilst interrupting me.
"No, I won't. Listen, you've probably done even worse crimes than this, I don't know, but I know you don't intend to do bad things. It's just circumstances. Out of compulsion."
"Thank you for being so understanding. You're the only person I know who understands me this much, especially in such a short period of time. And I promise you there is a reason to all this, it's just I can't tell you it just now."

He gave me a smile whilst staring into my eyes. He had a broad, genuine smile on his face, and dimples on each side of cheek. I've always found dimples really cute. His eyes fixated mine and was a beautiful brown complexion. Usually, I'd feel uncomfortable when someone would stare at me in my eyes for a while, but I didn't with him. I fell a sense of peace when I locked eyes with his. Maybe it was just because of being attracted to him. Or maybe it was something deeper than attraction. Was it love? Well apparently love makes people go crazy, so my heart may be going insane at this point. No, it definitely is. I felt satisfied whenever I saw my kidnapper and whenever he was in my presence - I don't know what's more crazy than that. I was even paranoid that he may not have been here today. Maybe I need to control myself. Even though I know falling in love with my kidnapper is wrong, my heart is blind, so I have to control it as much as possible. Just, act like everything is normal. How it used to be. I shouldn't make it obvious that I like him. What is he going to do about it? Like me back? As if.

My deep thoughts were interrupted with the toast popping out of the toaster.
"It's finished, what would you like on your toast?" He asked me whilst opening the door of the fridge.
"Uh cheese," I replied whilst removing my toast from the toaster and carefully putting it on the plate. He grabbed the butter and spread it on both our toasts, allowing the butter to melt. Exactly how I liked it. It kinda scared me how he knew exactly what I like. My favorite pancake filling, the type of pillow and mattress I liked, how I love melted butter. He knew it all. It was sweet though; I may have subconsciously hinted to him what I like and that's how he knows. Whatever it was, I liked it. But why do I feel the need to return the favor to him? To give him small things which will make him feel appreciated too. I need to find out what he likes and doesn't. In fact, I need to find out more about him. To me, he's like a really good book or series, once you start it, you want to find out more about it since it interests you. And every time I spend with him, it somehow always ends as a cliffhanger. But I need to make sure that it always ends perfectly.

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11:20pm

The rest of the day was like every time it was our day off. He would go to his office room to complete important work and I'd just find something to do to cure my boredom. It pissed me off how we couldn't spend time together, but somehow I needed to make it possible. I don't mind staring at him all day, just watching him. Even if he didn't know I was watching him. Tomorrow, I need to make sure I will try to spend as much time as possible with him whenever I had the opportunity to. I want him to never leave my side ever. I don't care if it's selfish or attention seeking. It's fate. The universe must've divined this, and made us two meet each other. The context wasn't appropriate, but if this was how we were meant to meet, then it's fine with me. Everything happens for a reason. Him kidnapping me was maybe a good thing after all. If only he could turn this 'maybe' a 'definitely a good thing'. If only.

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A/N: Hi everyone, sorry for the very long wait. Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, I made it slightly longer to compensate with the wait. As usual, if there's anything wrong with it or something you don't like, feel free to message me anytime. Unfortunately, I won't be posting as frequently because I have exams approaching. I'll try to post new chapters every week if possible. I'll be posting more often after the end of June. Sorry for the inconvenience, I love you guyss <3