I could write about the hardness of loving you
Express my soul about the pain of remembering you
But I could never imagine to talk
About the fight with my mind that assaults me
When it comes to define the hate I feel
It's overwhelming to say
A friend that could be my enemy
Someone who punches me in the face
When it comes to my mind speak out loud
And say that I miss you
Hate is that friend who tells me
That you must be dead
Hate is that friend who screams at me
That you are not good at all
And the bruises in my arms and the cuts in my legs
Shall be enough to realize you are not good at all
But I hate you so much that makes me love you
I need your fist on my face
I need you to make me bleed again
Somehow, deep in my heart I know
I could never love someone over you
Because no one would ever treat me this way
Criminal enough to make me happy
Good things not enough to make me happy
Punch me in the face
Hit me in my soul
Shall I be gone loving you?
I rather live here hating you, with you by my side.I don't want to have that look
The one where I see someone I used to love
With eyes of still loving
With eyes of still cryingI don't want to have that smile
The one where I'm happy to see someone
After years of missing
After years of wonderingI don't want to have that conversation
The one where someone talks about a soulmate
Because they have finally found love
Because they haven't loved me againI don't want to have that feeling
The one where I realize I haven't forgotten you
Praying for this to end
Praying for this to be gone.
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Blossoming
PoetryThere's a lot of courage involved in the process of feeling emotions. A constant development is needed to become a good person, and most of the times it's difficult to be one. It's okay to be mean sometimes, it's okay to be good others, but what rea...