Nine's Soulmate

It's Okey To Be Selfish

Sichao's POV

I'm out from meeting room with cup of caramel macchiato in my hand. Meeting for my first single performance is over, now I can go home and rest. My assistant and I go to first floor, and then...

"Liu Yu..." I saw Liu Yu sitting alone in wjjw café. Liu Yu seemed like... thinking about something. I decided to approach him.

"Jiejie just go first to our car, I'll follow." My assistant going to car with all my stuffs, and I walking towards Liu Yu. I'm so close with him, but he didn't even notice I'm there.

"Hey! Why you look serious?" I sit down and greeted him. Knowing I'm sitting front of him, Liu Yu immediately looked at me in surprise.

"Chao... you here?" Liu Yu smiled kindly at me. I just nodded smiling at him, I knew he not in mood to smile.

"I've heard your song... I really like it. You wrote it very well." He said again, and once again I just smiled.

"What you doing here?"

"Huh?" I know he heard my question, he just needed time to answer.

"I'm just... this... I'm thirsty." He show me water bottle in his hand and smiles. What's wrong with him? I think with Xiao Jiu who is cheerful again now, there is nothing Liu Yu to worry about. Or this time is about work?

"How about your work, good?"

"Yeah. It's little bit tiring, but I can handle it." Liu Yu continued to squeeze his water bottle. So it's not about work. So about what?

"Where is Xiao Jiu? Why I'm not see him?"

"He's... in practice room." He smiled, then avoided my eyes. What's this? It's about Xiao Jiu? Again?

"He's not with you? Usually he always follows you wherever."

Again, I took a sip of my caramel macchiato while continuing staring directly into his eyes. Liu Yu thinking so hard before finally shaking his head still avoiding my eyes. Yeah, I'm sure it's about Xiao Jiu. 99%. So...

"Xiao Jiu!" Liu Yu looked at me when he heard my voice. Yeah, I called Xiao Jiu.

"Still practicing? I'm at wjjw now."

"Chaochao! Really? I miss you..."

"Come here. Don't you want to meet me?"

"Where are you? I'll be right there now!"

"I'm at wjjw cafe. I'm with Liu Yu now. Come here quickly." Nine silent for a long time.

"Xiao Jiu?"

"Are you speaker your phone?"

"No." I looked at Liu Yu trying to act normal, he kept staring at me that on phone.

"Chao, I can't go there... I can't meet Liu Yu for now."

"Why?"

"I'll explain it to you later. Sorry..."

"Okay. I see." I hung up. And yeah, Liu Yu still there looking at me. He waiting.

"He's coming here?" Asked Liu Yu, his gaze... very hopeful. I can't tell him the truth, so...

"No. He still practice, so he can't here with us." I lied. I saw face that full of hope before, now looked very disappointed. What's with those two? While I still busy with many possibilities in my head, suddenly...

"It's really what he said...?" He asked me.

"He can't come here because of me right?" I can't answer anything, he knows. I don't know what happened, but it looks pretty serious. Liu Yu still looking at me.

"You guys fighting?"

"No." Liu Yu shook his head.

"Then...?"

"He like that after I said something to him... I told him about my feeling."

"What you say?" I know what he means, but... I still want him to tell me directly.

"Chao, Xiao Jiu... I love him. I love Xiao Jiu. I don't know since when this feeling growing but..."

"So, you told Xiao Jiu? You love him?" Liu Yu nodded.

Knowing them being like this now, I don't think it's have a good news. I've known for a long time about Liu Yu's feelings. Maybe even before Liu Yu realized it.

"Yeah..."

"And after that, Xiao Jiu... He became very uncomfortable around me."

I don't know about this yet because Xiao Jiu not told me at all, but Xiao Jiu, he must be having a reason why he did this to Liu Yu. I mean, I know Liu Yu means a lot for Xiao Jiu. I'm sure Xiao Jiu didn't do that because he didn't like our Liu Yu.

"I really feel it, he's avoiding me. Even this morning, I waited for him to go together. I, I really don't want to give up and try my best, but..." He silent again.

"But he avoiding you?" I looked at Liu Yu.

"Yeah..." Liu Yu covered his face, he looked very frustrated.

"I feel... maybe I shouldn't have said it to him."

"So you're want to stop?" I smiled, and yeah, Liu Yu shook his head.

"You can think I'm selfish. You can say I just care about myself. And, I could tell he not comfortable with everything I'm doing. But... I don't want to stop. I can't." Liu Yu looked at me confidently.

He told me all that, but... I still didn't feel he selfish at all. Liu Yu just... wanted to fight for Xiao Jiu. He wants fight for his love. How can I call that selfish?

"This is Liu Yu that I know. Since when 'give up' is it in your life dictionary?!" I patting his very stiff shoulder.

"There is nothing I can do for you, but... you have my full support." I took another sip of the caramel macchiato, and smiled at my best friend. Although he looks strong outside, but his inside no one knows.

"Do you think I'm selfish?"

"You're asking me? No, for me you're not." I shook my head confidently, then put my cup down on table.

"I'd be disappointed if you just gave up. But..."

"You must understand Xiao Jiu's position too. He's just recovered from his sore, and I'm sure you know best how much he in pain that time."

"And then now you come, offer him the same thing, you offer him a relationship. Something that hurt him before."

"I mean, I know you're not same with his ex. But Xiao Jiu, we don't know what he's thinking. I think all he needs is time, time to open his heart again, start a new relationship again." I'm not good with talking, but I hope Liu Yu understands what I mean.

"I'll wait and trying to convince him if I'm different. I won't hurt him."

"Yeah, you can do it." I cheered on Liu Yu.

I think Xiao Jiu, he's just still afraid to start a relationship again. Especially, this is Liu Yu. Countless Xiao Jiu told me how important Liu Yu for him. It's like people said, the more you love someone, the more you afraid losing that person.