Unwritten

xxii

**Mature scenes warning**

We stayed in bed pretty much until the afternoon until he suggested we go try the spa. I didn't pack any bikini as I didn't think I'd be going in the spa with him but I always pack one in my car just in case.

Went out to grab my overnight bag from the car and pulled out what I had in there. I don't know how or why the bikini I had was the skimpiest I ever own but what the hell im not gonna waltz in there naked. Thank God I got a wax! I put it on and threw my robe over it.

He was already soaking in the spa, champagne glasses on the side, when I came in and I see the anticipation in his eyes as I took my robe off. He was trying to hide his smile but his reddened face betrayed him. He held out his hand to help me get in.

"This view is stunning." I said as I went closer to the glass window to look out.

He followed closely behind and sat next to me leaning his back against the window.

"My view here is better." Pulling me close to him and putting me on his lap.

"Flirt," I kissed him and wrapped my arms around his neck and just hugged him. "This is so romantic. I love it."

"I'm glad you do. I'm sorry I can't take you out for dinner.."

"What are you talking about? You cook for me. You even did the laundry today.."

"Pssshh.., but I haven't taken you out on a proper date. I don't want you to think that I'm taking you for granted just because you're with me all the time."

"Never." But those words tugged at my heart knowing we really don't have much time together. We haven't talked about it nor what our status is. I wanted to talk about it but just don't know how to start. I was just gathering my thoughts and courage but before I can even begin..

"I really like this bikini you have on," twirling the loose ends of the knot on my nape,"but I bet it looks better taken off. Should we test if I'm right?"

Right. I shouldn't have worried about this skimpy bikini cause it'll be taken off in no time.

Of course we ended up in bed, his room now. It's a king size bed and I guess that encouraged us to try new stuff. In the end we were both exhausted, more out of breath than before. We were spooning, me the little spoon, still recovering from our stunts, when he spoke.

"What's it like to forget everything?"

"Uhhhmm.. at first I was scared, then angry and sad. Then it came to the point I became numb and just didn't care. I felt so alone with all this people surrounding me. They're concern drowning me." My voice cracked as I spoke. He turned me around and wiped my tears. "I just didn't know what to do. Everything I've done has been wiped away. Deleted. Now I have to start all over. That's why I came here. Where no one knows me. Only the people that need to know, knows cause I don't want to be pitied. I want to be understood and supported. See me for who I am now without constantly comparing me to the past that I can't remember. It's like they're giving me a target that I can never reach when they bring up what I used to be. And you know what's funny. I'm trying my hardest to get to that point, when I don't even remember what that was. It's like I'm living someone else's life to fulfill someone else's dreams."

He hugged me as I sobbed in his chest.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that. But know that you're doing great now. You can write your story from this point on. You're your own person.  I wouldn't trade the Ellie I know now to anyone that I've met before or will ever meet."

He softly kissed my eyes still wet with tears then my lips. He gently came inside of me, slowly, letting me feel every stroke he makes as he play with my hair and continues kissing my face and neck. He kept his pace, slow and steady, just making me feel good without making me climax.

I'm being pleasured.

Being comforted.

This is what it feels like to be made love to.

I think I'm falling in love.

F**k.