Lie To Me (Jay McGuiness Fanfic)

Chapter 19

Recap: 

(Jay) I take a deep breath and just say the first thing that comes to mind, “Emma. I am so sorry. For everything. I was such a jerk to you. I shouldn’t have reacted that way, and I shouldn’t have gotten so mad at you. You didn’t deserve that. Can you- uhh, is there any way you could possibly forgive me?” Emma’s eyes don’t leave mine as I speak but I can’t tell what she’s thinking. She looks away from me. She doesn’t say anything for a long time. She just sits there, looking down at her coffee. The silence is killing me and I can hear my own heartbeat, each passing second making me more and more nervous as I wait for Emma to say something.

 Emma

 Sitting across from Jay in the mostly empty cafeteria, and hearing him ask for my forgiveness, I have to stop myself from smiling like an idiot. I thought he was going to confront me again, like that night back at my apartment. I wasn’t expecting him to apologize, so it was a pleasant surprise when he did.

  I look down at my coffee, trying to think of the right thing to say. “Jay, I…” I risk a glance in his direction, and his blue eyes reassure me. I suddenly know exactly what I want to say.

  “I’m sorry too. I should’ve told you the truth from the beginning. I know what I did was wrong, but I guess I was just scared you wouldn’t like me if you knew I was an actual fan of the band.” My voice cracks as I speak and I can feel tears threatening to make an appearance. “And I understand if you never want to see me again. I wouldn’t want anything to do with me either, if I were you. So now you can just forget we ever happened. But I just want you to know that I never meant to hurt you and I really am very sorry.” 

  Before he can say anything or see the tears filling my eyes, I turn around quickly and walk towards the door of the café. I hear him call out my name, and am about to turn back around when my face rams right into something hard. It takes me a few seconds to get a hold of myself and I realize that I had run into Jay’s chest. Apparently, he was a lot closer than I had imagined he was.

  He has his hand on my elbow. When he sees me looking down at his hand on my elbow, he pulls away quickly and looks embarrassed, saying “Sorry about that.” I just shake my head and smile awkwardly.

 He’s standing less than a foot away from me. This is the closest we’ve been to each other in weeks. It’s hard for me not to reach out and touch him, but I somehow manage to control myself.

 Jay finally speaks, “Emma, please don’t go. What happened between us was stupid and I hate it, but I don’t want to forget about you. I can’t. Trust me, I’ve tried. I would love nothing more than to start over with you, right from the beginning, if that’s okay with you.”

 I didn’t notice it at the moment but while we were talking, Jay had reached out and taken ahold of my hands. I’m trying to process what he just said, but the feeling of his hands against mine is very distracting. I nod stupidly and just stand there, looking up at him like an idiot. Jay grins wide and says, “Really? Are you sure its what you want?”

 Hearing his words, I snap out of my daze and this time, when I nod my head, I’m sure of what I want. I smile reassuringly “Definitely.” At this point, I’m sort of expecting him to kiss me or something, you know, to seal the whole new beginnings thing between us. However, Jay apparently has other plans. He grabs my hand and pulls me back in the direction of the table where we were sitting just minutes ago.

He practically pushes me down onto my seat, and I’m expecting him to sit down across from me but instead, he walks away. I watch him walking away, and when he turns around, he looks at me and points down at the coffee cup in front of me. I look down at the cup, expecting to find something important around it but I can’t find anything.

 Suddenly, Jay is standing next to our table again. I’m about to ask him what is going on when he says, “Excuse me, miss. Do you mind if I sit with you?” I nearly burst out laughing when I realize what he’s doing but I decide to play along. I signal for him to sit down and he does.

 He doesn’t waste a minute, and introduces himself right away, “I’m Jay McGuiness. I’m from the U.K. I am a member of the band, The Wanted. I enjoying drinking, lose my cell phone all the time and say inappropriate things at the worst times possible. And you are?”

 I try to keep a straight face as I say, “I’m Emma Larner. I am an art major at NYU. I work in an art gallery. I live in Brooklyn. I drink a lot of coffee and beer and I am a huge fan of The Wanted.”

 Jay stretches his hand across the table with a big goofy smile on his face, “Lovely to meet you, Emma.” I shake his hand and smile, “Nice to meet you too, Jay.”

 ***Author's note***

Sorry this chapter is like super duper late but it is a lot harder to manage school, work, personal life, a blog and a fanfic than I imagined. Anyways, I hope you still enjoy this chapter!

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Mari xoxo