Bad news

27

But I'm not fooling anyone

My mind had ran with many thoughts I had forgotten about the talent show which was right around the corner. Our song was complete yet we hadn't practiced in years. (Only an exaggeration but it felt like years). I whip out my phone.

Hey busy guy! Talent show soon! Might come to yours at 9 so we can practice.

Almost instantly I get a reply.

We can practice many things ;)

Nasty. Joking. See ya later x

I put my phone away giggling while having many butterflies attacking my stomach.

For now I knew I had to meet the devil. I put on a hoodie with cargo trousers, making sure this time I had pepper spray in my pocket in case. However he id ask to meet in a public area so it should be okay. I still wore nice undergarments for John later :).

I had finally reached the cafe. I hate how well he knew me. It was this cute cat cafe. it was small but aesthetic and somehow a smile formed on my face.

"Hey there gorgeous," a deep husky voice says. I quickly turn to face him. My eyes go to his eyes and I instantly look away with shame that I'm meeting this jerk.

"Let's just go in," I say sternly while we walk in. There are these cats everywhere.I kneel down to stroke one and it swiftly brushes past my leg.

"You like the place?" he asks trying to be sweet.

"Yes. but what do you want Josh? You nearly killed me yet here I am meeting you. Please don't hurt me again just talk," I say trying to sound reasonable.

"I did want you back. I pushed you away now. I realised that. All I'm asking for is to be your friend," he looks at me and I see a flash of guilt flow through his eyes.

"Are you serious? No. You need help Josh. I liked you a lot but you've hurt me so much. it kills me to imagine how much you hurting me affected everyone else," I say this all not sobbing but it was waiting by the border to be let out.

He gets up as if he's about to slap me but he sits back down.

"I was just hurt that you didn't love me. That's why," he shifts the blame towards me.

"Don't even say that. I told you from the start and you still pursued it. It was you," I exclaim while anger grows through me

"Y/n please understand my side," he says.

"No! You're wrong. It wasn't me. I listened to you. I cared for you. I bought things for you. I sang with you. I did everything to make you feel loved," my voice was beginning to break. He sits there taking in what I had just said.

"Okay. I understand. Just know that I love you and I'll always be here," he softly says and gets up to go.

This bi-polar bitch. One minute he's killing me then he says he loves me. GOSH.

I sigh and make myself over to Johnny's as its 8:30. I got there like 20 minutes early. His mom let me in and I see him on the phone. I quietly walk up to him.

"Have you got eyes on him? Yes I want him dead! I dont like her shut up. It's not like I'm using her. I'm just bored you get me?"

These words are like a stab to my heart. I dont even know if he's talking about me. I sulk quietly while walking out without him hearing me.