Y/n POV
I guess, you could say that I have had a crush on my best friend ever since we were 8 and now we're 12. Nothing has changed. Maybe I was afraid of what he would say. Till then I guess I will stay quiet until I can say something. Oh boy Lucas Sinclair had no clue how much I loved him.
I was sitting in my room all alone. While the rest of my friends Mike, Will, Lucas and Dustin were playing D&D. Of course they asked if I would come over. But instead I said I was busy. Was I busy? Yes, In fact I had a date. With a razor. I know how that sounds. But let me explain.
Right now, I'm sitting in my bathroom. In a robe. I just turned on the water. Was I gonna get in? No it was a decoy. To make my mom think I was so no one would disturb me. I was trying to pick apart a blade of a razor. I brought in a pencil to get the tip under the razor and just pull. Finally after 3 minutes of struggling I got it.
I took the sharp side and slowly brought the blade to my left arm. I shut my eyes and let the blade run across my skin. It did not hurt at first until I gave it a second. Then I started to feel the burn. I did this over again until I had 8 cuts along my arm. I did not want to go to deep because of course I did not wanna die I just wanted the pain to go away.
I got a dark navy blue colored hand towel and held it in my arm. I apples pressure to my arm. I needed the blood to stop before I could go to my room. After 10 minutes of waiting, it stopped. Luckily no blood dropped on the floor. I but the razor blade in my pocket of my robe and but the razor in the trash. I made sure to hug a whole bunch of toilet paper over it.
I turned off the water and walked out of the bathroom straight to my room. I put the robe on the back of my door, I picked out some old pj's I got for Christmas last year. There were two sizes to big. I put them on and checked my arm. Luckily there was no more blood but my arm hurt like crap. I laid on my bed.
"Y/n? Do you copy?" I heard my walkie talkie say. It was Mikes voice on the other end.
"Yes I copy" I said back.
"Do you like Lucas?" He blurted out.
"What? Why.. I mean yes but like no" I chocked out.
"Thank you, goodnight" Mike said back.
What did I do? Of course I knew the rest of them were there! I should have said no. Tears started to slip out of my eyes. Not only did my arm hurt. There was a pain in my heart.
*Mikes house*
Third person
"Dude she totally likes you" Mike said. He just got done talking to Y/n.
"You heard her say yes" Dustin said.
"But then she said no" Lucas said.
"It doesn't matter her first answer was yes! She totally likes you" Will said.
