Begging For You

Chapter 7

Thalia

''What'd you say?'' I whisper when we walk into the classroom.

''I didn't say anything.'' He replies.

''Yes, yes you did. You said something before we went in.'' I say.

''Thomas Brown and Thalia Jacobs, first you walk in too late and then you're talking, shut your mouths please.''

We sit and don't talk for the rest of the class.

''You can leave! Please leave'' Mrs. Miller shouts after 1,5 hours.

We all stand up and walk out.

''Do you wanna get some coffee?'' Tommy asks.

I ignore him and decide to ask him about it, ''Did you really hear me?''

He grins, ''hear you when?''

I look at him, I'm getting annoyed.

''Tommy.''

''Thalia.'' He whispers in my ear before he walks away.

Fuck, that made me so nervous.

I turn around when he just dissapears around the corner.

I smile when I get a text from Scott.

S: I just boared. Gonna miss you my lovely<3

''My lovely?'' I whisper out loud.

I roll my eyes and put my phone back into my back pocket when I get another text, I hope it's Tommy when I take my phone out.

S: ''Read'' I caught you, better not ignore me.

Me: sorry. busy. ill text you later.

S: Everything okay babygirl?

I cringe and put my phone back into my pocket.

I decide to sit away from Tommy for the rest of the classes and hang out in my dorm after.

I drop myself onto my bed, Emma's not here so I decide to call Scott.

It's 5:30 PM when he picks up.

''Hey baby, I'm back home, everything okay?''

''Yes I'm okay, just wanted to see if you got home safely.''

''Well I did.'' I can hear his smile. ''Are you in your dorm?'' He asks.

''Yeah, I just got home from a very stressful day. My roommate isn't here.''

''Want me to take some of that stress away?'' He whispers. ''Close your eyes Thalia.''

I feel awkward.

''Pretend I'm there with you, kissing your neck.''

I moan, fakely.

I think about the way Tommy whispered my name.

''I lift up your shirt and kiss you, all over your body.'' He whispers.

Fuck, I don't want this.

I feel his grin on the other side of my phone.

''You're moaning is hot tho.''

I think about Tommy being on the other side instead of Scott.

I lift up my own shirt and slide my own hand inside my bra.

''I unbutton your jeans and slowly slide my hand inside your panties.'' He says. ''You're so wet Thalia, like always.'' He whispers.

Tommy..

Just then, Emma comes through the door.

Thank god.

She has her Airpods in and she puts her stuff down.

''Thalia?'' He says on the other line.

''Emma just walked in, I'll text you, bye.''

I quickly hang up.

''Hey girl. Everything okay?'' She asks when I hung up.

''Yep. All good, I was just calling with my boyfriend.''

I sit up.

''Oh you have a boyfriend?'' Emma asks when she's jumped onto her bed.

''Yep, we just got back together but I'm having second thoughts.''

''Why?'' She sits up against the wall.

''Well I'm not sure it was smart to get back with him.''

She slowly nods her head in confushion, ''why?'' she repeats.

''well he can be very clingy and we've been apart for a few months and I actually didn't hate it.'' I admit, looking her in the eye from across the room.

''So why'd you agree to get back together with him?'' She asks, biting her nail.

''Well I love him, so much but I feel like I don't really want a boyfriend during college.''

She nods.

''In that specific moment, it felt good because I missed him, I missed his body and I missed his voice but it's only been a day and I'm already getting tired of him.''

She nods again and sighs, ''well. You should sent him a message and tell him it was too soon and you're not ready yet, that's totally okay you know?''

I nod, ''I think I'ma give him a call, a message is so not personal and I feel like I'ma break his heart, for the second time.'' I say, jumping off the bed.

I just hear her mumble and I walk into the hall.

I close my eyes and think for a second, think about Tommy.

I take a deep breath and dial his number, it rings once before he picks up, ''hey baby, ready to continue?'' he asks, I can hear his smile.

''Actually Scott, I'm sorry but I can't do this. It was too soon.'' I say, just getting it over with.

''Wait what? But we just.. you just- Thalia are you kidding me?'' He stumbles.

''I didn't do anything. I'm sorry, I never should've gotten back with you. I'm so sorry.''

''Thalia. Is there someone else?'' He sniffs, he's crying.

I think for a second, debating if I should tell him about Tommy.

''No. I just don't want a boyfriend right now, I'm not ready.''

''Will you ever be? I can't believe you're doing this again, now.'' He raises his voice.

''I don't want you anymore okay? It's over, forever. Please don't contact me again and don't come here, please move on and find someone your own fucking age.''

I hang up, without waiting for his response.

I lean my head against the wall.

He calls me back almost instantly.

I block his number and I feel so relieved.

I walk back into my dorm, ''I did it Em.'' I smile at her and she jumps off the bed.

''Oh my god! How do you feel?'' She grabs my shoulders.

''I feel fucking good, I'm so relieved'' I smile.

''We.'' She points at me and then at herself, ''are going out tonight.''

''That's just what I need.'' I smile at her and she hugs me.

I couldn't have asked for a better roommate.