*Next Day*
I went to the mall after I got ready for the day. I met up with Matt, he hugged me, I hugged him back. He said "Are we back together?" I said "I don't know what we are." I looked down at the ground. He lifted my head up with his hand and kissed me. It was kind awkward, because we haven't kissed for 2 months, and I still had feelings for Carter. I looked into his eyes, I told him "Matt we need to be just friends." I gave him a kiss on the cheek. I sat back down.
I looked at my hands nervously. He sat back down. He gave me a hug. I looked at him and said "I'm sorry Matt, I love you but I have feelings for someone else." I was walking away, Matt grabbed my hand and spun me back around and kissed me. And he kissed me good. I smiled. I gave him a wink and walked away. He knows whenever I give him a wink, I totally forgived him.
I took the bus home, I told Zaykeah and justice about it. They were both happy for me, except when Carter heard about it. Carter came into my room later that night, he said he loved me. I had to talk to him about all this drama.
*My dream*
Carter and Matt were fighting over me! I couldn't handle all the pressure! So I moved away, I moved with my best friend. Carter was heartbroken! Matt was trying to look for me. I was sitting on my bed in my new room. I heard my phone ring, it was Carter. I didn't answer, I just let it ring. Then it rang again, after it stopped the first ringing, it was Matt. I ignored all their calls and all their texts. I couldn't talk to either o them.
*End of Dream*
I woke up, I was crying. I looked at my phone, it was 2 in the morning. I packed all my stuff and left for the airport. I couldn't talk to either of them. When my plane was boarding, it was 4 in the morning. Before I walked on the plane, I looked back, I swear I saw Matt running up to me. The lady closed the door and I was already flying back home. Later on, I was back home. I smiled, I ran up to my house, opened the door and ran straight to my room. It was 1 in the afternoon. I was so tired.
*6 hours later*
I woke up, I texted Zaykeah.
"Me: Hey, I know you guys are probably worried sick about me, I went back home. I'm sorry I just couldn't handle all the pressure with Carter and Matt."
I put my phone down and went to the kitchen. I heard my phone ring, Zaykeah had texted back.
Zaykeah: Dude! You couldn't have left a note or something?!? I'm really worried about you, I need to know if your, OK!
I texted back.
"Me: I'm fine, no I'm not fine. You know I can't handle boys anymore, you and Cameron keep telling me "I can't keep running away from my fears!" Yes! I know that but, what else am I supposed to do?!?"
I put my phone down, my dog jumped up on my bed. I smiled and kissed him on the head. My phone started to ring, Zaykeah was calling me.
"Zaykeah: You need to come back, I can't help you if your all the way down there! Cameron and I both really care about you! I love you Lexi and I need you here!"
I was silent behind the phone, pushed against my ear close. I could hear her in tears, cause she was scared something had happen to me.
"Me: Look I would come back, but I don't wanna see any of the boys, except Cameron! If you can help me clear this, then I'll come back!"
She was clearing her throat, I knew whenever she cried, her throat got really dry.
"Zaykeah: I will help you!" Now please come back!"
I thought for a moment. I looked at my dog, I was thinking, I don't know what I was thinking! I had all these emotions in my head, and they made a storm.
"Me: Ok, I'll be back maybe tomorrow."
"Zaykeah: Ok, see you soon!"
I hung up, I didn't know what I just did. I promised Zaykeah something, that I didn't even know exactly what happened during that phone call. I just decided to walk around and act like myself before I went to Denver.
*Next Day*
I won't be able to post a lot maybe, cause I got school going on, I'll write tomorrow, or I'll try to anyways! Good night!
Lexi Ray ✌️
