I woke up, I looked at my old alarm clock, it was 3:45 in the morning. I got up left a note on the kitchen table. I drove all the way up to Salt Lake City. It was about 11 when I got there. So I decided to sit at a Burger King and might as well eat some food. Man, I was starving. I was wearing sweatpants, a tank, and a hoodie over it. My hair was in a messed up bun. Everyone looked at me like, I was crazy.
I didn't give a fuck what they thought of me. I texted Zaykeah, telling her I would be there in a few hours. When I got to the airport, I was pretty much asleep. I looked at shitty but still didn't care. My plane was boarding, so I just ran up to the plane almost missing it, but caught it. I just put on some headphones and didn't listen to the annoying kids that were trying to sing behind my seat.
My plane finally arrived in Denver. I got up from my small slumber and texted Zaykeah to come pick me up. I was skyping my mom when she showed up. As soon as I saw here with her looking the same way as I did with Cameron though, I told my mom I loved her and missed her.
I ran up to the two and hugged them. They said "Everyone wasn't staying at the house anymore." I looked at them with relief. I didn't wanna see either of the boys. So when we got to the house, I grabbed a beer out of the fridge and sat down on the couch. Zaykeah and Cameron joined me. We sat there watching "Mean Girls". Cameron made us both laugh, especially when he was trying to react some scenes.
I couldn't sleep, so I just stayed up in my room, watching tv. Then it was about 9 in the morning and I was passed out.
*Morning*
I didn't wanna wake up when Cam jumped on my bed. I just kicked him off. And I slept in. They knew it was rough for me, with all he pressure. When I finally woke up, it was 5 in the afternoon. I just walked out of my room, and sat in the kitchen on the floor. I was eating ice cream, apparently I didn't see the sign and it was Cameron's. It was gone after a few minutes. Then I had a huge brain freeze.
As I was freezing my head off, I heard a ring off my phone. I just ignored it. Some how Hayes knew I was there. He knocked on the door and I yelled and said "It's open!" Not caring who it was. He was walking around, calling my name, then he noticed me in the kitchen. He asked me "What are you doing?" I said "Sitting" I laughed, he joined me.
I was getting up and he helped me up, cause I was kinda dizzy from something. Hayes helped me get around the house. He put me over his shoulder and set me down on the couch. I kissed him. His lips were against mine, and not his purpose for my purpose. I pulled away, "I'm so sorry, I guess I just missed being with a guy." He said "It's ok, I enjoyed it" he grabbed my cheek, and pulled me back up to his lips. I laid down, he was right on top of me. We started going for a make out session. I didn't pull away, then I heard a door unlock. Carter opened the door. I push Hayes off. I look Carter straight in the eyes.
I'm thinking in my head, omg! I don't know what to do but run. I was thinking I should run, but I didn't. I just sat there looking like an idiot in front of two guys. Now I've kissed Hayes twice. I kissed Carter once. I was looking back and forth at them. I had no idea what to do. It was just silent, for at least 10 minutes.
Then Zaykeah walked in, with some groceries. I ran to my room as fast as I can. I slammed the door behind and me and I was sliding against the door. I was crying, again for no reason at all, Carter decided to come talk to me. I still didn't know what to do. Hayes left over and hour ago. And now here I am making small talk with Carter.
It just seemed like my life got flipped upside down. Carter tried making a move, but then it backfired. He still liked me a lot. And I liked him too, but now also Matt and Hayes. So after Carter left I did a pros and cons list.
And I'm not 100% sure what that is. But then I decided to go out with Matt. I still really loved him, I had the most memories with him. But I know that doesn't make a lot of sense but, I was letting my guy feeling take this one. I met Matt at the public park. I had to text him and I was still really surprised he text me back at 3 in the morning. When I saw him at the park, I ran up to him and gave him a hug. He asked me "Did you finally choose?" I said "Yes"
He was crossing his fingers, he was trying to hid it from me. I said "I choose you!" I bit my lip when I said it. Picked me up and spun me around. Then he out his hand on my face and pulled me to his lips. I felt the connection, it started to actually happen again. No one else made me have this feeling.
I couldn't sleep at all! It's 12:30 in the morning and I'm still wide awake! Well more to come soon after this chapter!
Lexi Ray ✌️
