Finding You(Completed To Be Continued)

Mana ke hum Yaar nahi

She closed her eyes so as he deepen the kiss and tasting inner lips and all the hidden corners of their mouth as she stared reciprocating the kiss to him finally .

His hand on her cheeks and her on his mane ..his feet on his ,his forhead on hers and her soft chest to his hard on..all mingled together like their soul and body were kissing hard each other as he tucked her lips and trailed to her nape and ears lost ......turning her legs into jelly and heart in a puddle enjoying and living the moment.....just like the rain adorned the sky ,he adorned her fingers and hands tightly kissing her feeling his love....

He intricately inserted his fingers to her soft sleek fingers and lightly pushed her on the wall plucking her flowers like petals first time...their first kiss binding their soul for seconds which felt eternity. He left her lips to grasp in some air to breathe physically and trailing and peppering kisses to her nape, crook of the ear and then towards her deep neck trying to make her realise that he is always with her through here those intimate actions...love....lost in his love for her.

She felt so homely and belonged and worthy of love again ,a smile crept on her lips as she tightened the hold on her hand which were completely in hold of his hand .The carnal desire was so high that she forgot the outpour of rain outside and was ready to submit completely to the urge of being loved ...again and again....and her few fingers sneaked out of his tight hold and automatically proceeded towards his inner nape touching it with love and desire and so his free hands trailed to her shirt's top most button to free them open all spellbound in the jugglery of her beauty ready to make sweet love to the seductress love of his life touching through his thumb sweetly and little roughly now...still kissing on her lips though...

But as the world was so much into moon..Earth was so much into the captivating love for the Moon that Sun felt ignored and jealous for a while and produced a loud sound of thundering with a flash of lightning which distrusted and surrounded the earth.....Shehnaaz and she opened her eyes and looked at him...but the moon was ignorant and lost so much into his love so high that he kept pouring his luminosity and love on her kissing her jaws,earlobes,collarbones and then diping in her inner neck area just above her beautiful mounds ..He was just into another world...

She tried to look at his eyes but he was totally into her and so she closed her eyes again with the loudest  thunderbolt and a sound echoed in her eyes..

"Tune kiss nahi diya na Ghuchpu ,one last time.."..and his smiling face appeared infront of her eyes followed the last unseen glimpse of him on that stretcher...she blinked her eyes to break that trance when another sound echoed and boomed in her ears..

"Ye manhoos ladki mera beta mujhse cheen le gayi...bhagwan na kare kisi aur ke beta ko bhi apne prem jaal me phasa kar mere bete jaisa jaan se maar daale..apsaguni manhoos kahin ki.." The jarring voice of Siddhansh' s mother at his last rites when she went to meet him at his house one last time resonated and weeping face appeared infront of her eyes replacing her face with Her Badi Maa,his Maa..weeping for his only Son and helpless in the same disheartening state followed by Sidharth's face...and that was it for her...she blinked her eyes sheading tears to wipe those horrible images and shut opened her eyes and pushed Sidharth hastely and harshly the very next moment...in fear estranged.

He felt the loss of her touch and sudden detachment and looked at her at a distance..distanced and distressed physically and emotionally both.

Insecurities!!

Sometimes our insecurities are so grave that we twist and turn our relationships into those insecurities failing them with our own flaws to others...

These insecurities neither let is live alive nor die in peace taking us to that uncalled graveyard that we choose for ourselves only... and its upto us what we choose...After all life is all about choices only!....and Shenaaz choose the wrong one today  perhaps....submerging and drowning her into the grave of insecurities of her past and fear of shattering future...