Tough Love Carl Grimes x reader

Ch.9 Dont ever leave me

Ch. 8 recap
"Carl! Why do you need that it's not like we're under attack!?" I said grabbing his shoulders and shaking him.
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Carl POV
I don't know why I took it I just felt like I had to. I felt like if I didn't someone would get hurt. And someone did. More than one person maybe 6 or 7 it was random prisoners who have been stuck here for a few months maybe. Mom had contractions and the place was getting over taken and we needed to get mom somewhere. That's when we found the boiler room. Y/n had the door and blocked it. Maggie was trying to help mom with the contractions, that's when Maggie said something I was scared to hear. "Lori!Lori stop! Something is wrong." Maggie said freaking out. "Y/n my dad taught you some of the things to deliver a baby right?" Maggie panicked. "Y-yeah but we didn't get to practice yet." Y/n said running over to Maggie and mom. "Okay, Lori I need you to slow your breathing as much as you possibly can. Just a little will work to get the babies and your heart rate down." Y/n said trying to help my mom. "Y/n it's not working we need to do this now the baby could die if we don't!" Maggie said trying to make sure they both survive. That's when mom called me over and Maggie asked for my pocket knife. I was terrified knowing how this will end. "Do what's right, you are smart and you are so strong and you are so brave. And I love you so so much." Mom said holding my face in her warm and dirty hands. "I love you too mom." I started crying so much my vision was pure blur. That's when mom said to save her baby. And that's what Maggie and Y/n did.

Y/n POV
"Maggie if we do this she'll die. We have to wait for Hershel." I said tears forming in my eyes watching and listening to Carl and Loris conversation. "Do it Maggie." Lori said. "Y/n, take care of both my babies for me." Lori said reaching her hand towards mine. "Of course Lori. I'll always take care of them." I told her holding her hand. That's when Maggie finally started knowing we couldn't waste anymore time. Lori screams was all I could hear at this point, that was until it died down that I realized she was finally at peace with herself. "Mom!" Carl yelled crying more than before. He was shaking her arm. Then he stopped grabbed his gun and shot her in the head. She would've came back as a Walker. But at the same time, I couldn't understand why he just walked away like nothing. "Carl-" Maggie said trying to help him in someway possible. "Maggie, don't I know him. He won't talk to anyone for awhile." I stressed knowing whatever is happening in his head, he'll take it out on us. "Carl! Lori!" Rick yelled running to Carl engulfing him into a hug. "Where's Lori?" Rick asked searching for his wife and mother of his two kids. "R-Rick stop please." Maggie tried saying as straight as her sore throat would let her. That's when Rick asked Carl, he just looked down and cried a silent cry. Rick started crying and yelling Loris name over and over again. After that Rick fell out of it, it's like he went insane. "Carl?" I asked walking inside our shared room. "Carl come on you have been avoiding me since-" I got cut off by his voice saying, "Since what?" In a growl kinda way. "Well.." I tried thinking about the exact time he started avoiding me. "Since when Y/n!" He yelled getting up and towards me. "Since t-the incident-" I started stuttering from fear a little and worry. "You want me to forgive you then basically?" He said raising his brow, I gave him a confused look cause I don't know what he meant by that. "Carl what did I do?" I said trying to get him to open up to me. "WHAT DID YOU DO?!" He yelled throwing his hat to the floor. I gasped and backed up. "YOU KILLED MY MOTHER! YOU SAID YOU KNEW HOW TO DO IT BUT DIDNT!" He yelled pushing me to the ground. I got up as fast as I can and went up to him. "What you forgot about that night was I tried to save her. You shot her before I could try and save her." I said pushing past him and grabbing my things. All of them heard what happened and I guess they heard what I said to Carl cause when I walked out they gave me a nasty look like I had just killed someone. "I hate you Y/n." Carl said not even looking at me. I know what I said was messed up but I did the same thing to my mom. I had to, but I didn't avoid Carl for it. "Then hate me Carl, but don't forget I didn't hurt you when she died." I said looking at him. After that day I never talked to anyone anymore. Of course I would say something if I saw a walker or when I had to tell someone we ran out of food. Carl and I haven't spoken at all. And I moved to a different cell. The governor also had a down fall of his people. Which we took in and now we have a community. I still don't talk to them though. I talk to myself at night when I know no one would listen, just so I don't loose my voice. "Carl..." was all I said.

Third person POV
Little did Y/n know Carl was awake and listening. Carl was gonna tell Maggie that she needed to go on wall duty with Glenn but he heard Y/n. She missed him so much she kept saying his name and crying.

Y/n POV
"Why don't you keep my name somewhere else?" Carl said coming inside my room. I gasped and wiped my tears away. "Why don't you mined your own business?" I snapped back. That's when he came up to me and turned me around. "What did you mean by "she" that day?" He asked me knowing I wouldn't forget. "Why do you care. It's not like you care for me. You said you hated me, so don't try and act like you care now." I said taking his arm off of me. "Cause, if you were talking about my mother I'll kill you." Is what he said before he put his hand on his knife. "You think everything is about you? Guess what, I was talking about my mother. The one that died because I was trying to comfort you after Rick was in coma. She died cause I wanted to help you Carl, and yet I never blamed you for that day and I never will cause it wasn't your fault. It was my fault for thinking we could be friends." I said in a crying voice. This was the most I've talked since Lori died, and since Carl said he hated me. "What? We used to be friends." Carl said backing up a little. "Friends? They don't avoid each other when they know they need a friend. They don't turn things into arguments. We never were true friends, you made me realize that." I said getting close to his face. "I loved you Carl, but I can't love someone who won't love me back." I cried putting my hand in his knowing this is the complete end of our fight. "I don't hate you. I hate the idea of that day." Carl said tightly holding my hand. " I hate that she died and you said you would help her. I hated you because you didn't and I thought that's why I hated you but it's not." He said lowering his head. "Then why did you hate me?" I asked putting my head against his. "Because I didn't want to get hurt just like my dad did if I lost you." He said crying into my arms. "Carl. If I died and you got hurt by it I would be so happy." I said stroking his hair. "Why?" He said looking up at me. "Cause, you would know what loving someone can do and how it can change you. Even if the change is bad, love can be a beautiful thing." I started crying with him remembering those words from my father to my mother. That's when Maggie walked in. "I knew you two could never actually hate each other." She said with her arms crossed. "Wise words Y/n. Love is beautiful." Maggie said walking away laughing, I was so happy to laugh with Carl again. After that we moved my stuff back into our original cell and me and Carl just shared a bed. Not enough room to fit two beds in a small ass cell. "Little Ass Kicker." Is what Daryl said about the baby girl in my arms. "I mean I like the name, but she's not only an ass kicker." I said bouncing the baby on my leg. "Then what is she?" Daryl asked me confused. "Simple. She's a baby, and a human being so let's not name a baby that." I said making it seem obvious. "Okay smartass." Daryl said ruffling my hair up. "Daryl! Not cool asshole!" I yelled not meaning to yell a curse word in-front of a bunch of kids. "Y/n! Come out here your coming on watch with me." Carl said taking the baby from my hands and handing it to Beth. "Carl really?!" I said wanting to hold the baby. "Yes come on." He said staging me. I went up first and he was right behind me. "Hey Y/n, ummm can you go faster?" Carl said I stopped and felt something hit my butt. HE WAS RIGHT BEHIND ME AND HIS FACE JUST HIT MY BOOTY CHEEK! "Okay I'll go faster!" I started climbing so fast I might be called flash.  "Sorry I didn't know you would stop." He said rubbing his forehead. "Bro- did you really hit your forehead on my butt?" I said trying to hold in my laugh. Which I couldn't do. "Shut up! It was your fault your the one who stopped!" Carl yelled pinching me in the arm. "Okay! Okay! I'm sorryyyy!" I said. And right when he didn't notice me, I jumped at him and started play fighting with him. "Hey!" Carl yelled getting focused on what was happening. "Nope! You have to be ready! I don't loose or get defeated easily!" I said getting ready to win. That's when he pinned me down and stood up and started cheering. "Fuck off Carl!! You only won cause my hair was in the way!" I yelled looking down and crossing my arms. "Please my hair is longer than yours probably." Carl said sitting next to me touching my hair. "Carl. Grimes. If you say that sentence one more time!" I said looking at him. "Okayyyy I won't, or I'll try not to." He said laughing and grabbing his stomach wiping fake tears off his face. "I'll actually give you something to cry about I said pinning him with his hands behind his back and face on the ground. "OKAYYY! I GIVE IN LET ME GOOO!" Carl begged.