More Than Enough

Chapter 16

Cami

I didn't feel like life-ing today. I wanted to stay curled up in bed all day. It was just one of those days where I felt gloomy, but I knew if I didn't get out of bed I wouldn't see Nico. So I dragged myself out of bed and got ready. It wasn't anything special, leggings and Nico's sweatshirt. It was comfy and I wanted to be comfy today.

I went into the kitchen with the rest of my family since I had the time to eat. I poured myself a bowl of cereal and sat down at the table where everyone else seemed to share my gloom. I guess it really was one of those days.

I ate in silence with the rest of my family and every once in a while I glanced up to see everyone looking down at their plates. I felt uncomfortable. Usually Rachel was chattering about something and Mom was congratulating her and Dad was usually never here for breakfast.

I was so confused until I looked down at my phone.

December 1

Holiday season was starting. Everyone tried to act normal around this time but it never worked. Holidays just weren't the same anymore. Not since Bailey. We didn't even celebrate thanksgiving anymore. Our extended family stopped inviting us after we rejected for three years in a row. We isolated ourselves and cut out the holiday from our lives. Christmas was harder. We didn't decorate a tree or bake cookies like we used to. Bailey loved Christmas so much. He started celebrating November first and didn't stop until New Years. It was his favorite holiday. Even better than his birthday "because my birthday is just for me and Christmas is for everyone" he said. It wasn't the same without him. So we didn't do it.

I missed Christmas. I missed the happiness it brought. Now it just brings back memories of a better time. Before I ruined everything.

The doorbell rang, saving me from my thoughts and I left without saying goodbye. It wasn't unusual. And they didn't respond when I did anyways.

I put on the best smile I could manage and opened the door to Nico. He gave me a kiss as we did quite a lot now, not that I minded, and we got into his car.

When the car turned on though, the radio blasted Christmas music and I flinched. Nico immediately turned it off and turned to me.

"Christmas was Bailey's favorite," I explained and Nico caressed my cheek. "I used to love it, but it's hard now."

"I understand that," Nico said. "I'll provide the musical entertainment for this car ride."

Nico then burst out singing some random song as he drove away. I couldn't help but laugh at his out of tune voice. Nico was crazy and he knew just what to do to cheer me up.

"Stop! Stop! It's ok," I shouted over his awful singing.

"I'm wounded," Nico said sarcastically and I laughed.

"I love it when you laugh," Nico said, making me blush.

I didn't know what to say to that so we just sat in silence for the rest of the ride. When we got to school, Nico and I walked in hand in hand. People didn't stare so much anymore, they'd gotten used to us holding hands.

It'd been over a month since Nico had moved here. It was hard to believe. It felt like just yesterday he showed up and changed my whole world. Nico was my everything now. He was my happiness, my comfort, my home. And I loved him.

I loved him.

Holy Hades, I loved Nico.

What should I do? Should I tell him? Should I not? It's too soon, isn't it? What if he didn't love me back?

My hands started getting clammy and my heart sped up to a rapid pace. What was wrong with me?

"Hey, what's wrong?" Nico asked.

"Nothing!" I responded to quickly and Nico gave me a look that told me to tell him the truth.

"It's nothing, really," I said, hoping he would drop it. I didn't want to ruin what we had and I was worried that if I told him, I'd scare him away.

"Cami," Nico said, releasing my hand to stand in front of me with his hands cupping my face. "You can tell me anything, you know that."

"This is different," I muttered.

"You can tell me."

I fidgeted with my hands, but I knew I had to tell him. He knew me too well and he'd know I was hiding something if I lied. Please don't let this be the end.

"I just..." I trailed off trying to figure out how to say this. "I just realized something."

"And this something is?"

I looked up at Nico and our eyes locked in on each other's. My eyes held everything I was feeling and I was positive Nico could see it. Now I just needed to say it.

I shot my eyes back down and went back to fidgeting.

"I love you," I whispered. "I just realized it. I love you so much Nico. You're my everything."

Nico lifted my chin up so I was looking him in the eye again.

"I love you too Cami. More than you could ever know."

And then we kissed, with the entire school watching us, and I couldn't care less. All I cared about in that moment was Nico. I loved him so much and I poured that love into this kiss.

When we pulled apart, the hallway erupted into cheers and whistles. My face turned bright red and I hid it away in Nico's chest. He just chuckled and wrapped his arms around me.