view yourself through a lens
and view yourself through another lens
you hate being around people
because their perceptions of you are so wrong
that you find yourself tempted to play these roles
it is easy to play a part
there is freedom in letting someone else decide which version of you they're going to get today.
you are expendable. infinite. a version for a person.
there's power in allowing them versions as they wish.
you die ricocheting between being
someone important, a backdrop
the only person who nods at the story
the funniest person, the gloomiest girl,
the zoned out kid, the comic relief,
the one who needs interventions, the one you go for interventions.
this is the least you can do for them. make them feel like gods.
so there are many yous floating around like dead flies.
many of them. and they're all miserable.
