Torture & Love

Chapter 5

I wake up next to Draco once again, it's coming up to the Christmas dance and I'm very exited for it yet I have no one to go with me but I have to kill Dumbledore that same night I moved the date forward one night. Pansy Luna and I went dress shopping together, "I need a really slutty dress to impress the boys!" Pansy says. I roll my eyes "What boys would want to look at you anyway I had Draco all over me remember and before Draco their were a lot more very hot guys including you boyfriend Blaise." I say with a smile "Come on guys stop fighting" Luna says. I walk off to go see what's around the store, I saw some nice dresses I picked out three stunning dress's. 

"I have no way to pay for my dress." Pansy wined "I'll ask Draco if I can use his card." Pansy replied with. "Oh... Draco all ready gave me his card and all he needs from me is the colour and style of my dress so tomorrow he can go suit shopping." I say with a smile on my face." Oh yeh and where will you keep the dress don't need anyone ruining it." Pansy replied with a smug tone. "You don't need to worry about that now do you Pansy, my dress will be safe and sound." Pansy rolled her eyes and said "Go on Miss Quinn." I give Pansy a glare "I mean Miss Riddle." I roll my eyes and go try on my first of three dresses. The first dress was a black and green ombre silk slip on dress. I put the dress on and it fit perfectly and showed my friends, Luna thought I look incredible but Pansy did not. I go back in to try on my second dress. The second dress was a dark green ball gown with green lace on the bodes and nice lacey silk of the shoulder sleeves. I walk out and this time Pansy said "Wow you look good, Draco is lucky to have you." I look at her and reply "Wow thank you Pansy, I'm sure whoever you going with is lucky too." She smiles. Than I tried on my last dress. I put on my third and final dress, a low neckline dark green dress with silver bling and nearly clear legs, skin tight lose legs from the lower knee down. I walk out of the dressing room and the girls squeal "Oh my god, that is the one! You need to get a black hooded long coat with heals with snakes on them!" Luna said and Pansy said afterwards "I'm not going to the dance anymore. No one will go with me." With that she left.

I paid for my dress and left, with Luna who got a Blue silk fitted dress. I ran back to Draco's dorm where he was waiting. "Hello Draco! Let me show you my dress!" I said eagerly Draco smile "Go on." I quickly take off my skirt and top and slip on my dress and heals and coat.  Draco's jaw dropped. "I got my suit today and it matches perfectly let me show you." He puts on his suit and I smiled "We look so hot together." Draco turned to me and said "Are you scared?" I look up at Draco "Of course not, you'll be their with me and Bellatrix and Snape and the others, right?" Draco smiles and nods. I take of my christmas dance clothes and hang them up. We go down stairs and see Pansy and Blaise fighting "I can't believe you Blaise how fucking dare you cheat on me!" Pansy yelled to Blaise "I said I didn't do anything she kissed me first! please can we still be together?" Blaise yelled back but Pansy left the common room.

I ran after Pansy "Pansy, what happened?" I ask. Pansy replied "What do you care?" I look into her eyes and place my hands on her shoulder's "Because I care about you! I understand your pissed but Blaise is telling the truth I saw the girl kiss him first he pushed her away Pansy he isn't like that he doesn't cheat on people, people usually cheat on him. Now go make things right, and maybe we can be friends and go get you a dress."  Pansy nods and apologies to Blaise.

That night I stayed up all night not wanting to go to sleep, because I needed a way to get Dumbledore up to the astronomy tower where I'd follow. Whilst Draco was still asleep I say "I am scared to kill Dumbledore but this isn't the first time I killed someone and won't me the last but I do know one thing, I know that I love you and always will." I go to the bathroom and cry. I run my right arm under water and scream out in pain tears falling down my cheeks. Draco came in and I pull my sleeve down quickly and sit in the corner with my head in my knees "Y/N what's wrong?"  I cry he grabs my arm to hold but he could see it hurt. "What happened?" Draco asks slowly pulling up my sleeve than he takes off my shirt to see their are scars and fresh cuts up my arms and shoulders "Y/N... are you okay?" I try nodding "Don't tell me the truth." I smile and say "No I'm not okay I am on antipsychotic's and antidepressant's I'm crazy. I feel really dizzy right now." Draco looks at me in shock and says "how much blood have you lost?" I shrug than pass out.   

Draco puts my shirt back on and picks me up my arms and head handing like I'm dead, Pansy and Blaise stop him for a second "Is she okay?" Draco shakes his head "I think she tried killing herself, don't tell anyone please." The nod and Draco goes as fast as he can to the Hospital Wing. Draco places me down on the bed and the nurse stitches up my deep wounds on my wrist and bandages my arms up. When I wake up Draco is right next to me holding my hand. "Draco! I'm so sorry I never meant for you to have seen that." Draco looks at me "You expected me to find you dead didn't you? The nurse reckons you took some sort of pills too, did you?" I look down and face the other way "I took both bottles of my medication's. I didn't want you to see me like that." Draco gets up "Why didn't you tell me you were hurting? What happened?" I turn around and look into Draco "My family they hate me now. None of them are death eaters my parents lied to me, they don't want me anywhere near them ever. They wont even let me go to my grandma's funeral." Draco sits down and hugs me doesn't say anything just hugs me.