SHADES OF SILVER. KTH | 21+

chapter 44

Third person's POV.

Living was a curse.

Especially in this world where people only greed and lust over things.

The second you show your raw vulnerable side, they gonna take it for granted and use you in utmost pleasurable way. Like a toy. In every aspect. Be it physical or verbal.

They just gonna use you.

That's how this world works.

One never asked for it though. They say 'He or she bought it upon herself.' No they don't. No one becomes suicidal on their own. No one becomes depressed on their own. No one becomes a killer on their own.

There's always an reason behind it. Always. A reason which world choose to ignore.

Similarly, Storm never wanted to live. She wasn't supposed to be born but she did. She never asked for her father to get killed brutally but he did and it was most traumatic thing that a little child can witness.

Torn apart from mother, she lived in a abusive household and let's not talk about the horror happened inside of it. No one definitely never asked to watch their own mother to get beaten up by an elder figure who believed to be a father, right?

School is somewhere one should make friends and get a healthy education. But to her horror, it only pushed her more to edge and broke her further to the point where she started to question herself.

Was living really worth it?

The world have taken everything from her- No, it have stolen from her. The world have stolen everything from her.

Her dada, her childhood, her identity, her name, her virginity, her innocence, her vulnerability, her will to live, her sanity, her soul.

Everything was stolen without her will.

They sucked her soul and left her body behind to rot. It would have been good if they just took her soul in one go but no. Life loves to play games and people are waiting for their turn to stab you. They sucked her soul bit by bit to the point she lost her sanity.

They stabbed her again and again instead of killing her in one stab.

Did she deserved that?

Did she really deserved all those treatment? Just because she was born?

In a way that's what she believed. She really did.

It's her pay for all those havoc she bought in her parents life. Yes she believed that. To this day, deep in her head, she believes it.

Why didn't she killed herself? Not that she wanted to. But because she feared. She fears on 'what if she won't die?' Which gonna be even worse.

Everything will be worse and she would have to live on all of it for once again which she could never.

Hiding wasn't an option since no matter what happens, no matter how far you run and hide they gonna find you in your most vulnerable moment to feed their own greed.

As time goes, she have came into the term where nothing matters, where she didn't even feared death but until she found her Jewel who she had to keep in her safe. She had to live to make sure her Jewel was safe.

Her Jewel which gave her hope to live.

Right now, her hope was fading. She can feel it as she breathed heavily in following seconds as she drove across the road while breaking all the speed limits like a maniac.

Her whole being was tense as her breath was a bit abnormal, eyes wide as she chanted in her mind that all this wasn't real.

She kept denying the reality because she didn't wanted to believe it.