reputation // jeon jungkook ✔️

chapter six

now what

shin minseo

"come outside" jungkook says through the phone.

"no." i state, tears still running down my face from the earlier events.

"i heard everything, please come out." he begs.

"no. you can come in, but i'm not going out."

"okay." he chirps and i hear a knock on the door instantly. I hang up the phone and go to unlock it. jimin locked it on his way out, i almost didn't want to change the state it was in. jungkook knocked again. i open the door and see his slightly faded purple hair. "min... are you okay?" he asks as he reaches his hand out to touch my shoulder.

"i'm not." i admit. he nods and walks me over to the couch. "jungkook, i just don't know what to do now." i sob. "i saw him every day for five years and it just ends like this?" i throw my face in my palms.

"i know min..." is all he says. i don't think he's equipped to handle this kind of stuff. i'm not either so i don't blame him. it makes me feel a little bit better knowing that he is here for me.

"how did you hear everything?" i ask.

"i was coming to check on you, and i heard yelling so i stayed out and listened." he says while rubbing the back of his neck.

"you didn't come in to help?" i ask even though i knew that's not what i would have wanted.

"no, you had that under control. and you two needed that moment. that was probably one of the saddest things i've ever heard." he admitted. i nod. "but now you heal." with those words, a thought popped back into my mind that i've been trying to keep away, but i know i need to say it.

"jungkook... for me to fully heal, i need to stay away from you." i calmly say.

"what? why?" he instantly asks.

"well... from the moment i met you, this spiral with jimin started. and while it wasn't your fault, you're going to be a huge reminder of this whole thing. and in order to heal i can't have that huge reminder giving me comforting hugs or warm bunny smiles... at least for a little while." i say wiping more tears from my face. it feels like i'm breaking up with two boys today. jungkook nods.

"no i get it. just be safe min. if you need a ride again i can send a friend of mine to do it. i don't want you walking anywhere at night. if you need anything i'm sure i can arrange something... i just-"

"jungkook, i handled myself just fine before you came along, i appreciate the gesture and i may take you up on some of that but i've got this." i tell him sternly.

"okay... just please come back to me eventually." he looks down at the ground. hearing him say 'come back to me' after sojee said it to jimin hurt. but i know he didn't mean it that way. he stands up and walks to the door. "ill see you around." i smile a little at those words as he shuts my apartment door. i sit there in silence for a while. now what?

-

the anticipation you feel while waiting for someone important to pick up the phone is crazy. it has now been two days since i broke up with jimin, and i guess jungkook. i am ready to go back to work, but first i need to talk to someone.

"hello?" a raspy voice finally answers.

"yoongi, hi, it's minseo." i respond. i hear him clear his throat.

"minseo, how are you? i heard-"

"i'm okay, i just want to... can i come over and talk to you?" i ask him.

"yes, of course, i'll leave the door unlocked for you." i hear him smile through the phone. yoongi has always been a great guy, but i can't shake the feeling that he knew about jimin before i did.

"okay, ill be there soon."

"see you then!" and we end the call. i could never be mad at yoongi, he was jimins friend before he was mine so when it comes to taking sides i know he will pick jimins. i just need some answers and closure. the drive to yoongi's is a short one, probably why i always believed jimin when he said he was going there. of course i had to walk, so it would take a bit longer, but i didn't mind. i'm not really in a hurry to find out all the bad things about jimin.

-

i remember yoongi told he he unlocked the door for me, so i give a gentle knock and make my way in the house.

"minseo? i'm in the kitchen." he shouts. i make my way through his living room where he seemed to be watching some kind of movie, and i slowly enter the kitchen. "hey, glad you made it." he smiles and sits a cup of coffee on the table and motions for me to sit. "i already know what you're gonna be asking so i thought i'd do something to lessen the tension." we both laugh a little.

"yoongi, i just want to know how long it was going on for." i went straight to the point. that's something i like about yoongi, he won't beat around the bush even if you wanted him too.

"four months." he states plainly. i gulp trying to hold down tears. i told myself i was done crying.

"was it always with sojee?" i asked, my mouth getting a bitter taste at the mention of her name.

"Mostly, occasionally he would pick up a random girl, but it was mostly sojee." he watches my face carefully as he tells me these things.

"why didn't you tell me?" i already knew the answer to that one.

"jimin asked me not too. he didn't know what he was doing. he told me he was going to figure it out, and if he couldn't he would tell you. but he didn't want you to hear it from anyone else, and i agreed with that." i understood a lot more after hearing that. it's true that it would have been better to hear it from jimin rather than catch him in the act. at least i wouldn't have a real image burned into my head. "he loved you. he really did fight for you. just... at some point, he gave up." yoongi frowns.

"you don't hate me do you?" he asks.

"no yoongi, i know why you helped him, he is your friend and he trusted you. i can't say i wouldn't do the same thing for my friend." i smiled at him.

"i told him if it goes on too long i would tell you, but you found out before i got the chance." he laughs a little.

"i get it, thank you yoongi."

"is there anything i can do for you? jimin was pretty torn up about it, i can't imagine how you are..."

"it hurt like hell, it still hurts. i just feel lost. i can't fully understand how so much time can just become nothing. i just need more time and space." i tell him. he nods understandingly.

"well i'm glad i could help. but jimin will be here in thirty minutes and i know you two don't want to run into each oth-"

"shit!" someone yells behind me. i turn around to face the last person i wanted to face.

"jimin! i thought you were coming later..." yoongi awkwardly says.

"i came early... i didn't know she was gonna be here." jimin says as if i'm not sitting right in front of him. "minseo... hi." he tells me. i hate that my stomach flutters at his gentle voice.

"i was just leaving, jimin." i say bluntly as i stand up. i pause a moment to look at him, he looks at me both of our eyes holding sorrow. i give him a small pat on the shoulder. "thank you yoongi!" i yell as i walk out of his house. as i shut the door i let out a huge breath i didn't know i was holding. that wasn't the worst way it could have gone. still my heart ached a little more than it did before.