rewind.

18

"Everything I have ever done was for him. I hate that I gave up my teenage years taking care of him." Taeyong slams his hand down on the wooden table.

Standing across from the pissed off Lee was yuta. They had met up in Taeyong's guest house. It was more like a hangout now. It was very convenient for a quick get away because it was right in the back of Taeyong's house.

Yuta huffs out and pushes his fingers through his auburn hair. "Listen Tae, he is probably going through something too."

"No, but how could he do such a thing to me? I took care of him."
Taeyong pushed away the napkin yuta handed him. He didn't care if he sauce from the pizza under his chin, he wanted to be angry while looking at the part.

Yuta shakes his head in disapproval, "Tae, Jae had been going through the ringer. He has been seeing Jackson and his husband turning on him. He really isn't in a good place."

Yuta pushes the napkin back over to the stubborn older man. "Blood related or not, he is still your brother and you still love him. It's alright to be upset but atleast think of him right now."

Taeyong tisk and rolled his eyes at the Japanese. Why should he think about Jaehyun? That bastard was basically cheating with Johnny. He broke the brother code. Besides, how can he say Jaehyun and Johnny are going through something? Did the Japanese bump his head and forget that Baekhyun threw him in prison?

"He's going through it? What about when my husband threw my ass in prison over a man he didn't even speak one word to. I was disposable to him. Like right now I feel that our friendship is disposable because you aren't listening to me."

Yuta's orbs soften when he hears Taeyong's voice crack. Slowly he reaches out his hand and takes the elders on his own. "I'm sorry that you feel that. If you feel like I am disregarding how you feel I will assure you that I'm just trying to patch up this mess."

The auburn smiles softly, "you still haven't wiped that sauce up from your chin." Yuta grabs a napkin and wipes the sauce away from taeyong chin. "Everything will be fine. Just for a moment you are upset. Tomorrow you will embrace him again because you care."

"But I don't want to. I want to hate him. I do hate him. I have lost everything because of him. I gave up making precious memories because I was worried about him. No, I don't even consider us friends."

Just then the door slams closed. Yuta and Taeyong look at the door. Seeing no one there they continued to talk.

Taeyong looks back at Yuta whose mouth was wide open. Taeyong flicks his chin up. "I know you're right yuyu. I should get over it but in my time."

Yuta slowly nods his head. "That is the best time."

They both looked at the closed door one more time making sure they didn't see a hira or taerin messing with them.

What they didn't see was Jaehyun carrying drinks for everyone. He had come over to spend time with Taeyong and yuta. Yet once again someone he held close to him shows their true colors.

He was stupid to not think that taeyong wouldn't be tired of him. He can't say that it didn't hurt. What he did was wrong but he was young and naive. So naive that he caused this to happen.

Evenso Jaehyun wouldn't let go of the feeling of anguish. He didn't ask for his life to turn out like this. He much rather be like the standard normal kid. Two parents with a dog or a cat. Maybe even a sibling if his parents wanted.

The more he thought of his past the more he started to realize that nothing that he has gotten hate for had been his fault.

Jaehyun walks into the house and sets up lunch for everyone. He was hungry so that's the main reason why he didn't throw out the fresh fried chicken and kimchi fried rice.

He had sat down and was ready to dog in just as taeyong and yuta walked in the house. Just as fast as his appetite was there it disappeared within that second that he saw Taeyong's face.

Maybe he should give the older one a chance to explain. Yeah that's what he will do.

"Aww you brought us food. You are such an angel." Yuta walks over and hugs Jaehyun. "Have I told you how much I love you jae."

"Mhm." He smiles at yuta. "I brought you your favorite drink. It's in the fridge on the right." Jaehyun says still not able to partake in his food.

His eyes land on Taeyong who still hasn't said a word to him. Almost like he was burning into Taeyong's soul. He wouldn't dare avert his eyes.

"If only looks could kill I would be dead." Taeyong places down the wooden chopsticks. "What's wrong?"

Jaehyun rubs his forehead as he tries to remain calm. He really wanted to smash all of that food into Taeyong's face. But he remains super calm. That is his superpower after all.

"Oh I see, you're mad because I slapped Johnny well both of you deserve one."

Jaehyun's head slightly moved to the side, "what do you mean by that?"
Jaehyun frowns more as taeyong just giggles in his face.

Yuta, who had kimchi sticking out of his mouth, slowly moved away from the table. He was enjoying his food so there's no need for him to get in-between this mess.

Jaehyun shakes his head no. "I'm upset because you were saying how you have done everything for me and how you lost everything because of me."

Taeyong's mouth fell open. "Well of course because it's true. I had to raise you when I didn't even know what I was doing. I gave you everything, you never wanted for anything because of Me. But then I find out that you are sneaking around with my almost boyfriend. Do I not have a right to be mad?"

"Taeyong, you're acting like I wanted you to take care of me. You're making it seem as if I had sex with him when you guys were in your talking phase." Jaehyun stands up from the table.

"Well you sure as hell kissed him."

"Over a kiss?!"

"You knew I loved him. I gave everything for you. I was your parents when I didn't have to be. So in return you should have always thought of me!"

Jaehyun reaches across the table and slaps the spit right out of Taeyong's mouth. "Stupid of to assume I wanted this. I never asked for my parents to die, you selfish little bitch!"

Chicken fell right out of yuta's mouth. What has gotten into Jaehyun? He never knew this side would show.

Jaehyun takes deep breaths. "I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of always worrying about everyone Tae. I'm tired of giving myself to people who only want the glory for doing the bare minimum. I'm tired of being stabbed in my back by the people I consider family."

Jaehyun left