Buckys pov It's been a few days Tony and us found a good doctor for her and now we're going to the first appointment. Tony's here having said 'it's a special moment and I should be there' tony turns to me as she's at the desk signing papers "you sure you ready to take on the responsibility of being a dad Bucky?" I nod and ask "isn't that what you wanted from me?" "Honestly? I wasn't expecting you to step up like this. I was expecting for you to just be here with and for her...but I'm glad you did. I want you to be sure with all the shit that happened with you that you're ready" he replies.
I nod "I'm ready Tony. I only hope I can be what that kid and her needs" he clasps my shoulder "you love her and I can tell you already love that kid. As long as that's there...the rest should come naturally" I nod and she returns to her seat and I touch her hand noting her knee bouncing "relax okay? Everything's going to be okay Josie alright?" She nods "yeah-" she's called in before she can say anything else.
We're let in and the woman gasps at the sight of us. Tony sighs "not a word to anyone or you'll be hearing from our lawyer" she nods and Josie goes through the tests of her weight and answers questions. Now she's on the bed and her shirt is lifted and she's already starting to show a little bit. Not much. My hand grasps hers and we stare at the screen. The doctor says "there it is. Looks like you're about...9 weeks?" "Wouldn't I have gotten symptoms before?" She asks.
The doctor says "a lot of things can factor into you not noticing and it's okay. The baby is perfectly healthy. I'm going to put you on prenatal vitamins." We nod and she takes pictures of the sonogram for us. I smile seeing it and hearing the baby's heartbeat.
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It's so tiny. She cleans up and schedules another appointment for next month and we head out. Tony smiles "I'm betting it's a girl" she chuckles "I have a feeling it's a boy" I ask "really?" She nods "I don't know why but it's just a feeling I have" I smile her way "maybe you're right, maybe you are having a boy"
"It's too early to tell but do make your bets" she replies with a chuckle. Tony says "whichever you have that baby will be loved regardless" I tell her "he's right you know?" With a smile. She smiles my way "yeah" we head home and tony says "I should head back before questions are asked. Wanda knows because she read my mind but she's remaining quiet and will most likely come for a visit with vision" she nods and asks "and Steve?" I sigh seeing the pain in her eyes. She's getting better and over him slowly. She doesn't cry anymore. She's writing more music actually. It seems to soothe her. She's trying not to stress because of the baby.
He sighs "him and Natasha are arguing a bit. Falling apart it seems. He asks about you and where you two went. Said he wants to talk. Told him to fuck off and that I don't know where you two are. That I just know you're safe." She nods and they hug and surprisingly so do we. He mutters "make her love you. She needs someone who truly does" I nod discreetly and with that he's gone.
I ask "hungry?" She shakes her head "I have something but I don't quite think it's done yet" I nod and hand her her guitar and she sings for me.
"I wore makeup when we dated 'Cause I thought you'd like me more If I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before Tried so hard to be everything that you liked Just for you to say you're not the compliment type And I knew how you took your coffee And your favorite songs by heart I read all of your self-help books So you'd think that I was smart Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me I knew from the start this is exactly how you'd leave You found someone more exciting The next second, you were gone And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true 'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you And all I ever wanted was to be enough for you And maybe I'm just not as interesting As the girls you had before But God, you couldn't have cared less About someone who loved you more I'd say you broke my heart But you broke much more than that Now I don't want your sympathy I just want myself back Before you found someone more exciting The next second, you were gone And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true 'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough Don't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded? Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing? But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself..."
She chews her lip nervously "well?" I smile "it's perfect" she smiles and I tell her "you never have to feel that way again Josie. Not here, not ever" she touches my face and my eyes close feeling her touch "I don't know where I'd be if you weren't with me bucky...thank you" I kiss her forehead "you don't need to thank me doll. I want to be here" she says "I don't know how I'd ever repay you" I tell her "you already are by giving me the chance to be what I never thought I could be. A father. So thank you." I get caught in her eyes and she seems to do the same for me as well. She blinks and moves away "you shouldn't thank me for letting you do me a favor Bucky" "it's not just a favor doll. We're raising a baby together" I say and she smiles "yeah...we are"
