sweetheart margarita | DISCONTINUED

09

Taehyung made his way home, he hadn't driven home sober in ages. His fingers drummed against the steering wheel and took in his surroundings. He was so tired, he was itching to get home and he just wanted to curl up in bed and fall asleep.

When he made it home he couldn't even be bothered to do his night routine, he was so exhausted just unlocking the door drained him. So instead he took himself to bed without changing or doing his teeth and fell straight to sleep without having a drop of alcohol.

Although he was so tired that didn't stop his nightmares, well I don't think you can you really call them nightmares? they are more called flashbacks while sleeping.

The time was 6.34am, Taehyung had been asleep for all of 23 minutes and his body was twitching, he was sweating as if it was a hot summers day. Harsh, quick breathes flew out of his mouth as he began to thrash around.

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"Luna bub you need to go to school"
"Taetae don't wanna" Luna pouted as she snuggled into the duvet.
"Bub you need to get up, and go to school then you won't be a dumb dumb"
Luna sat up and gasped, hitting her brothers arm making him hiss at her in pain.

"I'm not a dumb dumb, I can still be smart without going to school. Taetae is the dumb dumb" Luna pouted, blowing out her cheeks.
"I'm not a dumb dumb and I know you won't be dumb if you don't go to school today but I'm your older brother and you should listen to me and I'm telling you to go school" Taehyung poked his sisters arms which made her whine and hide under the sheets.
"Leave Taetae, I'm not getting up, so go away. I'm not going in today, you're so annoying, I hate you!" She yelled, pushing him off her bed.

Taehyung sighed and left the girl to sleep more. He went downstairs and got two plates out and made breakfast for them both while their parents were at work. The young boy tried to not take his little sisters words to heart, as she was only having a little tantrum but he couldn't help it, he hated when she was angry at him.

A little while later, Taehyung heard footsteps against the stair floor boards.
"Come and eat bub I've made egg and toast" Taehyung chimed, hoping that she had forgiven him, but she strutted in giving him the cold shoulder.
She took her seat and drowned her food in ketchup painting the food which was a dull yellow now bright red.

"Bub please talk to me" Taehyung pouted, making sure that he whined as he did so.
He could see that Luna was really trying to not talk back. The silent treatment.
"Lunaaa, talk to me pleaseee, I'm sowy" Taehyung pouted.
Still no response.

"I'll by you some chocolate chip cookies" Taehyung sung.
"With extra chocolate chips?" She questioned.
"With extra chocolate chips" Taehyung nodded enthusiastically.
"Yes okay, Taetae is forgiven"

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Taehyung woke up and gasped for air. His heart twisted and his hands shook. He gulped looking around scared. He hated this feeling, the feeling of coldness, he had nothing to keep him warm anymore even on the hottest of days. He missed the comfort of his family, he missed his light but it was taken from him all too quickly.

He tried to calm himself down, and the only way was the alcohol next to him. He took a few sips and already felt the fake warmth. It's obviously not the same as his family's comfort but alcohol as the closest to him. Honestly he didn't see it as an addiction, more of just a reliever. It was a reliever for his pain and he had been fairly dependent on it, but he didn't want to view it as an addiction.

He sighed and let his head hit the pillow. Once again he fell asleep pretty quickly and this time he was able to sleep right through with no disturbances. And before he knew it he was already heading back to work. Some days were harder than others and today was one of them days, and because of that he was late. The bar would have already been open for about four hours now.

Bad I know, he knows too. It's not everyday he's late for work, and today seemed to be the day he was late. The reason for home being late, was simply because he was mentally drained. His head was thumping so much he couldn't even get up, he couldn't move. He laid in the same position with his eyes wide opened looking at the plain white ceiling.

So by the time he was able to move again, he still had to freshen up as he was wearing the same clothes from the night before which ended up taking even more time. He tried speeding over there but the car began to slow down and jolt.
"Fuck" he whispered to himself once the car came to a stop on the side of the road.
He got outside and noticed something was off about the car after lifting the bonnet of it, and it definitely didn't help that it was pouring of rain. He wasn't really sure what he was supposed to be doing but he pressed on a few things and that only seemed to make things worse.

"Fuck" he screamed again kicking the car angrily.
"Yah! Look over there. Seems we've crossed paths with a rich fucker"
"Excuse me?" Taehyung scoffed and tried to move from the three boys.
"Come on bro, we were only going to help you with your car. Easy" one of the boys laughed.

Taehyung knew this wasn't going to end well the moment he stepped out of the way. They grabbed him from behind and began to beat the male up, after taking anything he had on him, which was some loose cash and his cigarettes, oh and obviously the car, which apparently only had a loose clog or something which the dumbasses were able to fix. He had thrown a few punched back, he definitely broke someone's nose, but after a while he stopped and just soaked up the pain.

They left Taehyung on the side of the road dripping wet with blood gushing from his face and some places around his body. But he could he be bothered to move.. no. Did he think he deserved it... yes. He couldn't be bothered anymore, and if this was his punishment called life, he was going to suck it up and take it, because this is only a small bit of what he thought he deserved.

Taehyung looked up at the moon and saw how it was shining so brightly.
"Luna, Taetae had failed once again, I'm sorry bub, I'll see you.."
"Boss?" Taehyung heard a small gasp, before completely blanking out.