Uncontrollable (Sapnap X Karl)

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Karl's pov

I began happily walking my way to school. I can't wait to tell Nick about all the excited things that happened. I know I only met him yesterday but he feels so trust worthy. After a short period of time I reached to the school. I was about 45 minutes early. I am usually about 30 minutes early but I really want to see Nick. I sat down and waited patiently. I took out my favorite book from in my bag and began reading my book. I am almost at the end of the book. Everything is going well right now for the family. I took out the gummy pack a brought and opened and started munching on the sweet chewy treats. I was only reading my book for about 2 minutes.

When I heard someone say something that sent shivers down my spine.
'Oh well isn't it the little cry baby?'
That voice, I know that voice. The voice that made me stay in the school bathroom and eat there forever. The voice that knew what to do to make people hate me. The voice that  makes me shiver when I hear. The voice that made me cry, feel pain, scream and so much more. I didn't know he was going to be here. He is almost never early. He always skips Mondays why did he have to come today? Is the world really that much against me.

I looked up to see the owner of the voice I very much knew so deeply. It was Carter standing there fore before me. I looked straight back in my book because eye contact is the worse possible contact now. I tried to keep in my calm zone. Trying to focus on the words and not the figure Infront of me.
'Watcha reading here buddy?'
With Carter saying that he grabbed the book out of my hands. I just sat there and let it happen. I couldn't move I never fought back. I just sat there frozen looking at the ground.
'Eh, looks boring let's read the ending shall we.'
I immediately covered my ears because I didn't want him to spoil it for me. I am not gonna let him spoil my favorite book again this time. I was sitting there eyes closed hands covering ears.  Carter removed my hand from my ear.
'Are you ignoring me Karl? You know that's very mean huh?' He said while making a  frown and quickly turned it into to a devilishly looking smile. 'Leave.' I said to him in a quiet tone.
'Oh you can talk huh? Well you choose the wrong time to do so sweetie.' Carter started tugging my hair. 'Make a sound and you will regret you piece of shit.' Carter whispered in my ear. I started crying silently in pain. Carter had a firm grip on my hair. He used his finger to swirl some strands of hair to make a fist in his hand so he had a proper grab.

'The staff is in a meeting now so I can mess up that pretty little face of yours, next time you will learn to do my homework and assignments.' Carter let go of my hair. I let out a small sigh of relief. But the pain was still throbbing in that section of my head. Carter took a couple steps back clenching his fists. I closed my eyes tears steaming down my face. Hair messy and tangle. Shirt roughed up. Feelings absolutely broken.

I just wanted it to be over. Before Carter was about to give me a punch. He dropped his fist to the side. I was confused for a split second and I looked at his mouth starting to form painful and hurtful words.

'You will never be normal, go back to your planet of weirdos or what ever weird place you were born. Your a freak.' I was bursting in tears while Carter said those words. Words can be really painful, it doesn't have to be physical for it to hurt you, they just do. He was right I am not normal. I have Autism I have OCD. I am a freak and I will never be normal. I was a mistake. No I am a mistake. I don't understand why I am here. Why I am like this and why it had to be me.

I was just a mistake waiting to happen. Carter always found a way of getting to that mushy part in my feelings. He always knew what words hurt me. He always used them against me. He knows that I won't come to school for the next 2 days when he does this.  He knows what makes me want rip my head off. He knows just how to twist and turn me. It's like he programmed me. And now in this position I am in, all I have to do is accept my faith and get punched by him. Carter never punched me before only small tugs on the hair. Spit balls. And he did one thing that broke my very heart at that time. My heart literally sank. I couldn't get over the fact he did that for weeks. And to make it even worse he actually made a change. And I can't handle change. He messed up my whole process which left me like a mess. So Mr.Puffy wasn't my first stuffy. My first stuffy was a penguin named Mr.Chubby Wubby.