For You and Your Denial

Chapter 10

Olivia unwillingly spent her entire free weekend in her apartment thinking about the blonde's adventure up north with her girlfriend. Lounging on her cream comfy couch, wearing nothing but yoga capri pants and oversized t-shirts with her brown locks up on a messy bun. Her iPhone on her hand, contemplating rather or not to message Amanda, but in the end deciding not to, knowing that there would have been little to no service in her camp grounds. So here she was again, on her free Friday night off after a long and busy week, doing nothing but thinking about the blonde at home. Olivia spent the last hour debating within herself if she should go out to the bar, rather than staying at home and in the end decided to get out of the house for the evening. A different environment may help her get out of this lost funk she's been in for the past week. She took a quick look at herself in her full-length room in her bedroom, making sure she wasn't looking hideous in case she would bump into the blonde. Olivia wore dark blue skinny jeans and a tight white tank top, with a black leather jacket and matching black pumps to finish the look. Her hair was down and with soft curls on the ends. Happy with the way she looked, she grabbed her keys and clutch and headed to her front door.

She thanked her uber driver as she stepped out of the black SUV. Olivia stood in front of the bar for a moment, once again debating if she wanted to go in. The bar was packed, full of loud college kids and adults. Her body shook, nerves creeping up for no apparent reason but usually her 'spidey sense,' what Fin would call them, were never wrong. In the pit of the stomach, something felt wrong, well more like something was going to go wrong. The feeling has gotten worse, the sensation of was upsetting her, turning her stomach in knots. She stood there, staring at the bright neon sign in front of her, the laughter and drunken yelling from inside taunted her. Olivia shook off this weird vibe and decided to take the plunge and go in. Opening the door, she greeted with awful music and offensive body odor from the massive crowd. She shifted her body through the crowd as she tried to reach for the main bar, happy to find an empty seat at the very end by the graffiti written wall and a young twenty-something fit man quickly greeted Olivia.

"Hey there!" he exclaimed loudly in hopes his customer could hear him over the loud techno music.

"Hi, could I please get Johnnie Walker on the rocks?" she requested, hollering at her over the loud music.

The bartender nodded and headed to the top shelves to retrieve the bottom. While waiting, Olivia's eyes wandered around the bar, her eyes stopped at the much older couple dancing provocatively with each other in the most awkward way; chuckling to herself, hoping that she doesn't look like that when she dances. From the corner of her eyes, she saw her drink placed in front of her.

"That will be fifteen." The bartender informed her.

Olivia placed a twenty-dollar bill on the counter, letting the man know he can keep the change as his tip. Drink in hand, she took long a sip of the amber colored liquor that danced around the ice cube as her brown eyes continued to scan the bar around her. Suddenly, her breathing hitch and her hearted began to beat quicker while breaking into pieces. Her sad brown eyes stopped at the group of people who were laughing among each other at the very back of the bar. She watched them carefully, noticing every hidden moment. They stood around the standing round table, drinking and laughing at whatever they were talking about, together without her. She took another long sip of her whiskey, her eyes never leaving the table she had spotted. But without noticed her world stood still, there walked Amanda hand in hand with Hayley. She watched carefully, as the blonde wrapped her arm around the tiny waist of the young Latina while Haley turned into her embrace, placing her arm across the front of Amanda's waist. She was upset, hurt and offended that she was here alone drinking while the rest of squad members were all out drinking together and getting along with Haley. Unable to turn away, she watched Nick attempt to remove Haley from Amanda's embrace, but the blonde pulled her close as they laughed at Nick's fail to try to flirt with the young woman. Her stomach dropped, the sight before her as the two women shared a kiss in front of the entire squad, while they threw napkins at them, hollering to get a room.