Sorry, professor (D.M.)

Don't you dare leave me

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Don't you dare leave me

⚠️ WARNING: this chapter contains dark themes such as self harm and mentions about death ⚠️

"What can't he tell me? What's going on here?"

When Venus heard those words from behind her, her world stopped for a minute, and she swore everyone stopped breathing.
She looked at Draco through the corner of her eye and she saw he was just as shocked to hear his voice.
Venus and Draco turned around, to face Scorpius with the rest of the group. What the fuck do I say?!
"Venus was explaining to Carmen and me why you walked out on her back there, you looked quite upset so we didn't want to bother you" Albus said while scratching the back of his head. Albus looked around "and I think your father had the same intentions, he seemed worried about you and walked up to us" Scorpius looked at the group with his eyebrows furrowed.

"That doesn't explain why Car said not to tell me anything, or why it looks like you all got busted for doing something illegal" he said and crosses his arms, looking at each of them individually.

Carmen spoke up first "well I said that because we didn't know how upset it would make you if we talked about it to you or around you, you know? And we look like this because we didn't expect you to walk in on us discussing... this" she said pointing to the group around her.
Merlin I hope he believes it.

"That's very... considerate of you guys. I was indeed pretty upset, but it's fine now" Scorpius said with a weak smile, sadness still visible in his eyes.
She felt horrible for lying to him, for putting her friends on the spot like that, and make them lie to their best friend too.

This was supposed to be their little secret but it's hurting more people than it should. Is this really worth it?

The ball wasn't actually finished yet but Venus didn't feel like partying anymore, so she went back to her dorm. Everyone was still at the party, and would be there for quite a while.

She sat on her bed and she felt sadness overtake her, she hasn't felt like this in a long while, and she didn't miss this feeling at all. Please make it stop, I thought i was better?

Dark thoughts creeped into her mind, thoughts she didn't have for months. Is a small trigger like this enough to bring me back to my old habits? Am I that weak?

She scanned the room for something sharp, something she could take her other pain away with.
I am hurting everyone I care for, I am way too selfish for anyones liking, and soon Draco will find out too and then he will leave me, like every man in my life does.

She felt the tears come up and walked over to the bathroom, where she kept her razor. Weak, that's what I am, weak.

She looked at herself through the mirror, in her beautiful dress, and mascara running down her face. Broken, I can't be fixed. Who wants a pathetic girl like me? Who breaks down at every minor inconvenience?

She took off her dress and grabbed the razor from the counter and sat down the bathroom floor against the bathtub, looking down at her legs, her old scars just healed and looked rather calm. too calm, just do it. Might as well end yourself too.
So that's what's she did, it was like she was on autopilot and her hands did all the work without a single objection. And she did feel the pain, of course she did. But she loved this kind of pain, the one that distracts from the pain inside.
Now she can pretend it's not there, because there are more fresher wounds to take care of.