Fake It 'Til You Make It - Hamliza

Chapter 31: Secrets

Eliza woke up, and opened her arms, reaching for Alexander’s warmth, and then remembering he wasn’t there, she was just in an empty queen-sized bed at her parents house. This was the third time in the past two weeks that she had done this: reaching for Alexander, but then remembering that she broke up with him. The public didn’t seem to know, not even her family, until Angelica burst into the bedroom, holding her phone with an open news article in her hand.

"They know! It's all over the news! Well, the less important news channels cuz y’know tornados and stuff are more important but they know!" Angelica said frantically. Eliza looked up, more confused. "How? How could they know?" She was very worried.
"You unfollowed him on Instagram. Maybe they put two and two together?"

Eliza looked down at the bedsheets, and checked her phone, with hundreds of notifications. She saw in her feed, “Actors Elizabeth Schuyler and Alexander Hamilton break up, Alexander seen without his engagement ring.” Even she couldn’t believe this was real. She wished that she could have listened to him and let him explain. “Why?”, Angelica asked calmly.

"This is so stupid… I'm an idiot! I shouldn't have broken up with him! Now everyone hates me! I'll never get another job and Pip is distraught-" she stopped and groaned. Her stress was upsetting the baby. 
Angelica rushed to her side and tried to calm her. "It's ok. You're going to be ok… maybe try to contact him?"

Eliza got up, and got out some clothes. “What’re you doing?”, Angelica asked. “I’m getting dressed to go over to his house. I’ll talk to him and finally listen to him.”
She unblocked him and texted him that she would be over, so he wasn’t in immediate shock. She got into a blue sundress, and got into her car, driving to Alexander’s neighborhood. The guard, already knowing who she was, let her in. She knocked on Alexander’s door, and he opened it. She cried and hugged him. “I’m so sorry!”

"Eliza-" he held her close. "You shouldn't apologize. You did nothing wrong." She cried into his chest. "I shouldn't have left… I should have listened to you… I want to hear what you have to say…" she told him and looked up into his deep brown eyes.

Alexander let her in, and she sat next to him on the couch. “Alright… so I went to John’s house, and we drank shots until we were drunk. We kissed, and I feel so bad that I didn’t think of what I was doing. We were about to… you know… and that’s when you tried to call me. I felt extremely guilty and knew how heartbroken you’d be. Oh Eliza! I’m so sorry!” She frowned, and kissed him. “No, I don’t deserve-“ but in spite of himself, he kissed her back. “But- but I was about to have sex with someone else!”
“But you didn’t. That’s the thing. You thought about me and you didn’t do it. And you were honest with me.”

"I forgive you… I don't want anyone else to know about this… I hope we can be re-engaged. If not for me, then for Pips sake. And the baby. I love you so much… I hated being away from you." Eliza said. Alexander kissed her and twirled her around in pure joy, forgetting that she was still nauseous. 

Eliza ran to the bathroom and threw up, “I’m so sorry”, he said as she was brushing her teeth. “It’s okay. You were happy.” She then looked at him. “Do you wanna do something? I don’t want people to think that we are still broken up…”
They took a picture of them kissing, and Eliza quickly followed Alexander, and tagged him in the post. “I’m sorry… that’s just been bothering me since this morning.” She curled up in his lap. “I don’t blame you or John. Forgive me for saying this; John is kinda hot.” Alexander chuckled softly at that.

"Well, he was kind of a bad guy. His daughter went to the hospital after being abused and all he wanted to do was get me drunk." He stared at the ground. He knew that when Pip was in the hospital, Eliza would be there every day with him. She would never do anything else but think about her son. He hated to think this, but maybe John shouldn't be with frances

“Lexi?”, Eliza asked after awhile. They were talking about the fact that maybe John was in shock and not himself, and put their engagement rings back on their fingers. “Mhm?”
“I have a secret…” she whispered. “It’s been bothering me for years.” Alexander looked at her, worried. “Remember Maria Lewis?”
“Mhm?”
“Well I’ve had moments where I wanted to kiss her… y’know how you’re bisexual?” Alexander nodded.
“I think I am too…”

He kissed her again. "That's fine, my love. I will love you forever. It's completely alright." He said and hugged her. She smiled in relief and hugged back. "Ok, thank you. It feels good to get off my chest. Can we go get Pip now?" She asked, really wanting to hold her son again.

“Mhm. I’ll wait here, I want to surprise him.” Eliza nodded, “that’s a perfect idea.”
“Remember your fiancé loves you no matter what, even if you stare at another girl's boobs for a second!” Eliza burst into laughter and slapped his arm. “I’m going to go get Pip now”, she giggled.

She left and drove back to her parents house. Pip was playing with Peggy on the livingroom floor. That's when her perfect idea hit her. "Peggy! You have to come too! There's someone I want you to meet!" She smiled and held Pips hand as she went over to the car. She messaged Alex to invite John over before she drove back to his home.

Pip fell asleep in the car. “Wake up, Pip! We are here!” She smiled and held him. They opened the front door, and Alexander stood a few feet away from it. “Surprise!” Pip gasped, and right after Eliza put him down, he ran over and hugged him. “Daddy! I missed you so much!” He had tears of happiness in his eyes as Alexander picked him up. “I missed you too, bud.” John walked out of the living room, and Eliza smirked. “John, this is Peggy, my sister. Peggy, meet John.”

Peggy looked at her sister then John. "Nice to meet you I think… is your eye ok?" She took note of his black eye and got concerned. "I'm fine… I believe your sister is trying to set us up- I'm sorry. I'm not really interested in dating at the moment." John said and glared a bit at Eliza then left.

“I’m so embarrassed! I shouldn’t have-“ Alexander held her close. “It’s alright. It’s okay. He’s going through a lot right now. He’s really not himself.” Eliza nodded. “I should probably go, too.” Peggy said. She waved goodbye, and left.

Pip hugged his moms leg. "Mommy… don't be sad… you did something nice for auntie Peggy…." He whispered and tried to look up at her but all he could see was her bump. "Thank you for saying that, baby. You make me so happy." She smiled and picked him up. She kissed his head and held him close. "You will always be my baby boy, Pippy."